goodbye 2010 and hello 2011.

it's been a really short year this year. like seriously very short. to be honest, i felt that time went by way too quick. it's like time went on full speed and zoomed past in just a blink of an eye. i guess maybe it's because so much have happened this year that i kinda lost track of time. from leaving high school to getting my first job, to entering university, to having so many assignments to rush, to exams, to having fun, and to ending it all with a wide smile on my face. and i really thank God for this year as it's been one of the toughest and also best years of my life. there have been countless times of happiness, arguments and disappointments throughout the entire year but that's what it takes to make a memorable year. everything that's happened, i shall remember it all. to the many wonderful people that i met this year, thank you for everything. each and every one of you gave me a something special, something i'll never forget, even in the years to come. and when i'm older, i can sit down and have something great to reminisce about. so before the clock strikes twelve, i want to say something:

to everyone i know, i am truly sorry for the things i've done and the words i've said that might have hurt or offended you this year. 2011 means a new beginning for everyone so let's forget the bad and start making new memories. oh and have a blessed new year as well. may what you see in the mirror delight you, and what others see in you delight them. :) ♥

wedding. shopping.

it's been a very long day. it was one of my relative's wedding and we were all busy the entire day. well sort of. lol it began with daddy being the driver for the day. which also means that i have to be the driver as well since daddy will be driving the bride and groom from day until night. i was driving mummy and my sister the whole day too. but it was fun cause in the morning, when my dad had to go and pick the groom and drive him to the bride's house, i was also following the wedding car from behind along with the groom's six other "brothers". it was a great experience for me as this is usually done by guys only, not girls. so i was literally busy the entire morning. from the groom's house all the way to the bride's house, then headed downtown to church and back home. did i mention that the bride lived near campus? it was right behind dps area and wedding cars are supposed to be driving slowly so we took a very long time to reach the church from the bride's house. lol good thing we didn't have any thing going on in the afternoon. then it was wedding dinner at night. we reached the place at 6pm and were the first ones there. the dinner was at Imperial and all i can say is the place was friggen cold. seriously. good thing is that the airconds are working just fine but it's just too cold. i wonder how the skinny girls wearing strapless dresses could ever stand the cold. i salute to them. rofl

so in the afternoon, we(excluding daddy cause he was still busy sending the bride and groom to idk where) decided to go to Boulevard to do some new year shopping. *an advantage for not working XD* we were at the ladies department when i saw Albert walking around. and new year songs were playing everywhere. all these reminded me of the time when i was working at the pesta. one whole month of new year songs and all the memories i had with my colleagues. then i thought, i worked there in january and it's gonna be january again in two days time! wtheck? time is going by very very fast man. like seriously, don't you think it's a little too fast? can't believe that it's been a year since i worked there. eeeek. i'm still shocked about it you know. still cannot accept the fact that one year went by just like that. *snaps fingers but fails miserably cause i can't make any sound from snapping* the stuffs that happened this year, like applying for uni, starting uni, ending the first semester, enjoying my sem break, starting the second semester, everything. it's all still clear in my mind. seriously, i went speechless for some time. then i kept telling my mum about how it's already been a year and stuff like that. saw some old colleagues there and said hi. it really brings back the memories.

and the other day, i was talking to siew about how when the new year comes, it will be considered as two years since we left our high school. and it's so scary to even think about it. you know, i'm actually kinda afraid of thinking about the past. i'm afraid that i'll think too much and start crying and all. ah well, its all in the past now. need to be looking forward instead. 2011 is in two days. does everyone have their resolutions ready yet? :D

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yeah, that's my baby. :)

I feel like people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination. We’re always thinking that someday we’ll be happy. You know, we’ll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that’ll fix everything. But happiness is a mood, and it’s a condition, it’s not a destination. It’s like being tired or hungry; it’s not permanent, it comes and goes, and that’s okay. And I feel like if people thought of it that way, they’d find happiness a lot more often.

- One Tree Hill

growing up.

Growing up ...

When your bestfriend becomes your worst enemy, when lollipops turn into cigarettes, when the innocent ones turn into sluts, when homework goes in the trash, when detention becomes suspension, when soda becomes vodka, when undies turn into g-strings and boxers and when kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from a boy/girl were cooties? When your worst enemies were your siblings? When race issues were who ran the fastest, when war was only a card game, whenthe only drug you knew was cough medicine, when wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut, when the only things that hurt were skinned knees, when goodbyes only meant until tomorrow, and to think we couldn't wait to grow up?

my hair smells nice.

so i went to straighten the upper part of my hair as well as cut my front hair in the afternoon at Michael's. my hair smells so nice that everywhere i turn to sniff, i smell my hair -_____-" and to be honest, i don't really like my front hair. why? because the fringe is too thin. it always has been and there is no way to make it thicker. sad much. and well, hopefully it'll turn out nice after i wash my hair on thursday. *fingers crossed*

you know, now that my hair's straight, i was really hoping to wake up tomorrow morning and realize that i've become super fair so i can go and dye my hair jet black. it'd be awesome. yes, i'm sort of in love with jet black hair on faired skin people at the moment. don't ask me why. i just like it. XD

and like one more thing, as you know, i'm having my "summer" holidays right now, it's already been a month since the holiday started and somehow, about 45 minutes ago, i suddenly had the urge to study. i actually wanted to go get a book and study. lmao i think i've been locked up in my room for way too long. not that i hadn't gone out or anything but still, this shows how bored i am. and since i don't really have any books around, i went to take my economics textbook and put it in front of me. which is also in front of the lappy. so, you think i'm gonna study now?

i actually have movies/tv series to watch but i'm friggen lazy. besides, sitting in front of the lappy all day really makes me ass flat. and i'm lazy to do the house works too. but i've been a good girl lately. i've vacuumed my room like more than three times in the past two weeks. *feeling accomplished* lmao

oh and one thing, wedding dinner on thursday! it's nothing special but i just felt like announcing it to the world. it's been ages since i last attended a wedding dinner and well, i was lucky to be invited to two of them this month(another one was in Brunei last week). and the good thing is that i'm sitting with my relatives/people i know during the dinner so it won't be so you know, awkward.

Christmas ♥

It's the time of the year again to celebrate and rejoice, not because we wake up in the morning to open our presents but because of the birth of our Savior, Lord Jesus Christ. Just like our birthdays, it needs to be celebrated too. And it gotta be a grand one as well because He is our King, our good Lord, and the only person who could love us more than anybody in the universe ever will.

I personally love Christmas a lot because it gives me the opportunity to think about all the blessings I've received throughout the year. Also to reflect on the good and bad things I've done and all that's happened which brought me to where I am today. I admit, I may not have the perfect family, that smile on my face doesn't always mean I'm happy, I do not get straight A's in my studies, we're facing financial problems at home right now, I don't thank my parents enough for bringing me up all these years, and I certainly don't pray as much as I should but I am so grateful for these 8teen years of life. The Lord has never failed to be with me in times of troubles and sadness, He has been with me through thick and thin.

So my Christmas wish this year is simple. I just want everyone in the world to be able to spend this marvelous day with their loved ones, just like how I will be today. The Lord has blessed me with two wonderful parents and a loving sister, and to be honest, it's more than enough. There is nothing more I would wish for.

And to the people who's reading this post right now, I wish you the gift of faith, the blessing of hope and the peace of His love at Christmas and always. May all your days be merry and bright and may your Christmas be white. Blessed Christmas everyone :) ♥

Changes.

Everything is changing. Day by day, we don’t notice it, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and older we are the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all that’s left would be memories.

someday.

One morning you’ll wake up and you’ll think, 'how did i get here?'. You'll inhale a long drag of smoke through your lungs, and before you can exhale, pictures from your life pop into your head. Behind each picture lies a story. The first picture you see will make you smile. The image will remind you of a time when you were happy. Actually happy. The kind of happy that makes you jumble your words, the kind of happy that makes your insides twist, the kind of happy that makes you use the word 'forever'. The next image that pops up shows you your lowest low. The kind of low that told you to slit your wrists, the kind of low that makes you pull your hair and scream, the kind of low that never wants to know how long forever is. Then you'll look around you and you won't know whether to laugh or to cry. And you'll think 'I've loved and I've hated'. And you'll realize that you wouldn't have to hate if you never knew love.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow.
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Feelings

We change emotions.
We’re happy when something good happens.
we’re sad when something sad happens.
and we’re mad when something bad happens.
Life goes along with these feelings.
We shouldn’t be stopping it, sometimes these feelings are the things that we need to feel.

Lessons in Life

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. It’s okay to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: “In five years, will this matter?”

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

41. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don’t ask, you don’t get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift

:)

I want a guy best friend who gets mistaken as my boyfriend. A guy best friend is everything you need. Another boy who makes your life complete. A boy who I can run to when my girl BFFs aren’t around. He’ll kick my future boyfriend’s arse when he makes me cry. He’ll make me laugh when there’s tears in my eyes. He is immediately my date on special occasions when you’re single. Idk why. But I really need a guy best friend. A real guy best friend.

christmas is coming!

Band Aid - Do They Know It's Christmas? (1984 version)

Band Aid 20 - Do They Know It's Christmas? (2004 version)

this is one of the most touching Christmas songs ever. if you listen to the lyrics and watch the video, especially the 2004 version. the video never fail to make me shed a tear every time i watch it. oh and Christmas is in 17 days! excited much :)

so far this holidays, i've already cleaned 70% of my room, vacuumed my room, spend time with my sister, and waste time. kinda glad about it. at least i have done some stuffs since the holidays started two weeks ago. :) and well, i'll be going up to Brunei next friday for my dad's cousin's wedding. can't wait for that. hopefully it'll be fun fun fun! you know, i'm really hoping Wu Chun would be there but i think it's impossible because he went back to Brunei already recently. sad sad.

anyways, another less than two months to go until it's Chinese New Year! excited much. i wanna go get lots and lots of hong bao :D although some of my family members are not around anymore, i'm still hoping that everyone will still gather and celebrate the new year together, like how we used to do it before. but honestly speaking, i really really wish grandpa, grandma, 4th uncle in law, and my cousin diana were still around. and that everyone else who's not in miri to come back. that way, we can all come together and celebrate. i remember 10 years back, when everyone else was still alive, we would gather at my grandparents' home, which is actually next to my house, and we would be eating dinner together, and later, going outside to put fireworks. ahh, those were the times. somehow, i'm really starting to miss my childhood days so much. *sigh*

ah well, what to do? it's all in the past now. can only look forward. but i seriously do hope Chinese New Year next year would be an awesome one. besides, i heard from my mum that all the church members will be going on a new year gathering to all the church members house on my birthday. it's gonna be a busy birthday for me then next year. lol

winter/summer cleaning!

i cleaned my room today!

well, 70% of it though. but that's good right? i hardly clean my room anyways. well, i do but not so often you know. XD actually it was my mum. she was complaining about how i haven't cleaned my room since i already promised her to do so after the exams. but up until now, i'm still procrastinating and my room is getting messier by the day. so my mum asked me to clean it today since she's at home so she could help. but then she got kinda busy and i cleaned by myself. and you know, my room got LOTS AND LOTS of stuffs. even things that i never knew of or have forgotten about, i suddenly found it today. and it took me like three hours to clean cause i was doing it like in slow motion. why? just because i found lots of old and old-but-i-forgot-about-it-so-it-seems-to-be-new-to-me stuffs so i just sat there and looked at all those things. went through lots of stuffs before i continued cleaning again. LOL halfway through cleaning(which was actually kinda can be considered almost done), my mum came in and i told her i'm almost done and sh told me i could rest already if i felt tired and she went out. so i thought "eh, how come she so nice ask me to rest one?" then i didn't think much and stopped cleaning. who knew that when she came back into my room, she was like "you done already? why your bed still got some stuffs one?". LOL those things are needed bah right now so i didn't clean it up. so i told her she said i could rest so i did and she just shook her head.

but at least i feel sort of accomplished. my room is much cleaner now. more than half of my room is filled with books and papers and just stationeries. besides, i have this habit of keeping those lecture notes and stuffs just because i don't really feel like throwing them away yet. so yeah, my semester one and two stuffs are still here in my room. not to mention my form five school and tuition notes as well. this afternoon after cleaning my room, i brought out four big plastic bags filled with rubbish. and there's still another 30% left unclean. but you know, i doubt that there's still another 30% left because i think there's still more stuffs in the closet which i haven't even touched on yet. :O

i'm gonna clean my room again another day, so people, help me pray that i'm not lazy and that my "another day" will be very soon. XD

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"You've changed."

Those two words broke my heart. I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry I'm not the best friend you remember. I wish everything would go back to normal, I really do.

It hurts to lie to you. It hurts to see you hurt by my actions.

I wish I could take it all back.

to be honest, i seriously hope that you were the one who wrote this. every word, every meaning behind it, i really wish it was you. because the moment i saw this, i thought of you. i close my eyes and i can see you. i still feel you, somehow. i guess it's one of those late-at-night emo moments again. i know i'm over this but i can't deny that there are times when it all comes rushing back. *sigh

holidays.

it's been one week since the exams ended. well, i've been going out for three days straight from last wednesday until friday. then i took a break during the weekend and went out again on monday. i think i've been going out way too much. gotta stay at home more often now. but then, it's the second day since i've stayed at home and i'm already very bored. well, i actually have things to do but then i'm like super lazy at the moment. lmao i'll list out some of the things that i'm supposed to do/plan to do this holidays:

1. clean my room

2. vacuum the floor (of my room XD)

3. iron clothes

4. watch drama online/tv

5. get myself a job

6. do totally nothing at all

7. take care of my skin

8. don't go under the sun/use sunblock every time i go out

9. play badminton

10. spend time with my sister

and so the above 10 things are currently in my to-do list. any suggestions on what i should add or remove from the list? cause i seriously don't know what other things i can do. lol and i think that the very first thing i'd do on my list is number six. HAHA. that's what i've been planning to do since before the exams. cause there was this period of time where i was like so busy rushing assignments everyday. i had to go school at 8am and go back by 5pm or sometimes later. i had to go school even on fridays(fyi i do not have classes on fridays). it was really tiring. i even had to wake up at 4am too just to get it done. so i was friggen busy and didn't have time to rest at all. so i told myself that this holidays, i have to find a few days to just lie in bed and do totally nothing for the entire day. just to compensate the restless days during the semester. HAHA.

but then, do you think three months is enough or too long for me to complete the above tasks? ughhh :\

over.

the exams are over. the semester is over. everything else is over.

i can finally close all my books and throw my notes aside already. goodbye schooldays and hello holidays. ahhh, three months. i know that it's normal for every student to be thrilled that school's out and holidays are in. but seriously, i don't think i'm that excited at all. i mean, it's only the second day of holidays and i'm already missing school. lmao i know, you must be thinking "what the heck is wrong with this girl". but frankly speaking, i do miss school. i guess it's cause i've been spending lots of time with my classmates and that bond we share is getting stronger and stronger. especially between the five of us. you know who you are. :) and during the holidays, everyone's gonna go back to their own hometown. since most of my classmates are not local. sad but what to do? i can't stop them from going back right?

ahhh, three months. wonder what i'll become by the end of the holidays. it's either i've grown a garden full of mushrooms or i've already died from boredom. i was actually thinking of getting a job but i'm plain lazyyyyyyy. D: but i can't be so lazy bahh. i'm gonna go get myself a part time job. and hopefully i don't have to work until the sun goes down. and i don't wanna work everyday. lmao i think i'll go search for one once i'm done doing nothing at home. :P

:D

ACCOUNTING EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!

i am so effing glad that i'm done with the exams. but i am kinda sad too cause i didn't do well at all. i hope i don't fail this unit at all. i seriously do not want to repeat it. i wanna graduate from foundation and move up to degree! *shows determined face

anyways, i'll be having economics exam tomorrow. somehow i'm starting to feel lazy. not a good thing pls. i wanna get my studying mode on and do my best for this unit. i know i can score for this. a P should be no problem i guess but i wanna aim for D. and this time, i'm more determined. lol after economics exam, i'd need to study for maths and also malaysian studies. and after 2pm on wednesday, i can seriously run to the lake behind G3(since my exam location is there) and screaaaaaaam. :D

can't wait for the exams to be over and i'll be free. gonna go play with mah friends and have fun. but for now, i gotta focus on my economics. wanna do good for this unit. so yeah, toodles!

finals.

tomorrow is the day. accounting 062 will be the first paper. and surprisingly, i am kinda glad about it. wanna know why? just because i want to get over with this paper asap. i seriously cannot wait for the exam to end so i can just jump for joy and continue to study for the other three units. but i am glad also that by today, i have finished reading four chapters of accounting. i kinda lost my bank reconciliation lecture notes but that's okay. will go download it from moodle later to read. now, i'm gonna go through chapter one, two, three and four just to refresh my mind of what we've been learning in the past few months. honestly, until now i still can't really memorize the formats for the income statements and stuff. i'm still kinda bad at differentiating what should go where and this and that. hopefully by tomorrow i'll get everything into my brain and sit for the exams without much problems. my target for this unit is just a pass and nothing more. i'd be happy to get a P for this but i don't wanna be so greedy. besides, accounting is so not my thing. so i doubt that i'll be doing any good for this unit at all. lol

so yeah, all the best to every foundation student who's gonna sit for their exams tomorrow. let's diestrive for the best together! :)

a.c.c.

exams in three days. accounting exam in three days. gonna die in three days.

still friggin blur with accounting. thank goodness June and Gary taught me the last two chapters yesterday. now i'm kinda determined to continue studying for the other two chapters that wasn't covered in the assessment and midterm. after i'm done with these four chapters, then i think i'll proceed to read through the front chapters. and after that, i think i'm ready to hit either P or if possible, C for this unit. wish me luck people. :D

D:

at first it was friggen hot. then suddenly, the wind is starting to become really strong. now the sky is half bright and half dark. i wonder what's going on with the weather lately. :\ seriously hope that it's not the end of the world. lol jk *slaps mouth* touch wood touch wood. i don't want the world to end now. not when i'm alone at home and my parents and sister are nowhere near me. *think too much*

anyways, half the morning is gone and i'm still doing nothing. i mean, my accounting textbook and notes are all in front of me right now but i don't seem to be motivated at all to even read it. i even thought of putting this aside to study for maths first. ughh and my head hurts. not liking it at all. it totally took away my accounting studying mood. about an hour ago, i was like searching for some old clothes that i hardly wear anymore and felt like wearing it. so i went to dig all the un-ironed clothes and found some of the tees that i haven't worn in ages. lol then after that my dad came back and i went downstairs to talk to him and look for food. and now i'm back upstairs, i start googling for things. =______________="

can somebody please save me? i seriously do not think i can study for this unit at all. seriously no motivation and i don't know anything about this unit. besides, if there is anything i don't understand, there's nobody for me to ask you know. oh goshh i feel hopeless. but i should not lose hope so fast. i've already given up facebook to study, so i should just continue on right? oh Lord, please guide me through and let me pass this unit. *shows the kelian face* :(

oh and one thing, Twitter is seriously being a bitch right now. my internet connection has already been bitchy the past few days, but now Twitter too? wtheck? it kept showing "Sorry! You've reached the hourly usage limit. Try again soon". very very annoying pls. it's like i want to tweet but i can't. bahh, i think i should go do some mathsaccounting now. XD

d.i.e.

firstly, i wanna announce to the whole wide world that i woke up at 8am today. i know it's nothing special but seriously, i've been waking up at three or four in the morning for the past two and a half weeks. so i'm really proud of myself right now. lmao but then, i did wake up several times before the sun came up. so anyways, i'm not going to campus today since it's a public holiday and the library is closed. will be studying at home then. gonna go again tomorrow and hopefully, i'll get to learn some accounting. because seriously, up until now, i have NOT touched any accounting things at all. only studied for economics and commerce maths. i even have more motivation to study for malaysian studies more than accounting. how sad is that? ughh :( i really hope i can pass this unit. i do not want to retake this anymore next semester and i do not want to see the lecturer anymore too. lol

p/s: to anyone who's reading this right now, please please pray that i pass my finals next week kay? THANK YOU :)

studyyyyy.

good morning y'all. i feel good. got the studying mood right when i woke up this morning. :) hope i can really study hard for my finals next week. i seriously do not want to fail any of the units i'm taking this semester. if i do, i won't be able to go to degree next year. and i don't wanna be slower than my classmates. to anyone who reads this, do pray for me alright? i suck big time in accounting and maths. but i think maths should be okay since i did keep up with it but for accounting, i have been blur since the very first class this sem. i don't get anything at all and i never know what the lecturer is teaching :\ so yeah, you can see that i'm really desperate here. lmao

and one thing, i deactivated my facebook account last night. hope i can survive until after the exams. lol but i think it's okay since the main reason i login to facebook is to talk to my darling. and since she's got twitter now, we can just talk there. no need to go to facebook anymore. besides, twitter is just as addictive as facebook ;)

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exams in a week! i can't seem to concentrate on studying. especially when my lappy is in front of me. lol but at least i managed to almost finish reading economics. you know, this morning i told myself that i want to study either accounting or maths in campus today and brought all my notes. so i was going to campus feeling kinda excited to study for something which is not economics. but then, when we went to library, i saw that one of my classmates brought his economics notes and guess what? i ended up studying for economics again. the whole day. =____________=" like wtheck? i'm supposed to be studying for something else. not economics again. lol not that i can guarantee get good results for studying economics so much but at least i took the time to read and sort of understand it.

ah well, i'm doing my maths revision exercise now. just because the revision class is tomorrow. another last minute work. but that's okay. as long as i did my work, that's enough. and accounting, i think i'll study for it tomorrow morning. since i'm already sleepy and i haven't even started with the exercise. just went through the questions only. lmao

bilibala

haven't been blogging lately. guess i'm too busy to update. well, now that all my assignments are done, i have to prepare for my final exams. it's in one week and i have four units to cover. of which two of the units, i have totally no idea what it is about. and the other two, i have to keep up and keep reading/doing exercises. lol hope i can get through with the finals asap. all i want is to pass, and if possible, get good results and enjoyyyyyyy.

then again, i'm not really looking forward to the holidays cause everyone's going back to their own hometown and it'll be boring. two and a half months. what can i do? i wanna work but i don't want a full time job. i want a part time one. maybe a weekend job or something. cause i don't want to overtire myself. and i got a lot of things to take care of. things like my skin, my face, my hair, my room, everything. i'm gonna do a huge spring cleaning, do masks, and wear long sleeves clothes when i go out just so i don't become darker. rofl

i'm looking forward to chinese new year too. i wanna get lots and lots of hong bao. aiming for RM1000 next year. hopefully i can do it. *crosses fingers* ahh, i miss the chinese new year food so much. and speaking of chinese new year, i kinda miss my grandma. it's been more than a year since she left and things have been really different. we hardly have family gatherings anymore. :( it's like the moment she left, my childhood left with her too. and my cousin in ipoh too. she passed away in february earlier this year. i miss her too. especially my dad cause they were so close before. oh damn, i think i'm gonna start to cry again T_T

to be honest, i really really really miss my childhood days so much. we used to have so much gatherings together. i still remember the times where we all used to play and laugh and talk together too. it was so much fun. but now, everyone's grown up already and going their own ways. things have changed too. awwww. :'(

ah well, it's already in the past. no point writing so much cause if i did, i don't think i will ever stop writing. why? because this is only about my dad's side. there's still more on my mum's side. lol i guess i should stop now. need to go and study for my finals. will be updating again soon. or after the exams. toodles ~

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I miss you, when something really good happens, you're the first one I want to share it with. Because I miss you when something is troubling me, you're the only one who would've understand. Because I miss you, when I laugh and cry, you're the only one who could make me laugh harder and make my tears disappear. I don't know where we went and why we grew apart, but you should know, I miss you.

assignments due :(

i haven't been blogging lately because i'm friggin busy. i have so much things due this friday yet i'm still so lazy. it's like the busier i am, the lazier and sleepier i become. why oh why must i be lazy? isn't there any cure for laziness? D: you know, i have like two assignments due this friday, one worksheet(something like quiz) on thursday which i haven't got time to study for at all and also two presentations next monday and tuesday. fyi, i'm unprepared for them too. gosh hope i can make it through until next week. and after all those are over, i finally settle down and prepare for my final exams in less than a month. :\

lol so anyways, i just wanted to quickly update my blog so it doesn't seem so dead. LOL so yeah, do click on THIS when you're free or feeling down or just feeling unloved. :) ♥

I OVERSLEPT. there. enough said.

and the bad thing is that i've wasted four hours facebook-ing and sleeping. two hours last night was wasted on facebook and two hours this morning on sleeping. you know, i set my alarm to 4am and i woke up only at 6am. i mean, i did hear my alarm ring, i even went to the toilet to pee and drank some water. i was awake but i wasn't feeling so well so i went back to sleep. who knew that the next time i opened my eyes, it was already two hours later. lol

anyways, i'll be going to campus again today. got lots of stuffs to do. and i'll be attending Foad's C++ II lecture :DD kinda really looking forward to it cause i seriously have no idea what programming is about. it's a one hour lecture anyways so hopefully it'll be fun. gonna sit with Siew and her classmates later.

oh and one thing, i had a weird dream last night. lots of things happened but the main thing is this, YOU CAME BACK. i was like wtheck, you really came back? but good thing was that we didn't meet each other face to face. i was like driving in the car and you were outside. but still, why did you appear in my dream? is it because i've been thinking too much? or like what people always say "the reason why you dream about a certain person is because they want to see you". but i don't think that's possible lor. *sigh

so yeah, i'm off to do my accounting project which i was supposed to wake up at 4am to do just now. OMG.

Just a Dream Cover/Remix (Nelly) - Joseph Vincent & Jason Chen

i'm seriously in love with this version of the song. ♥ and i never knew Joseph Vincent could be so hot and he has such a beautiful voice. even Jason's voice isn't that nice XD not to say that his voice is bad but Joseph sounds much better. and you know what? the whole time watching the video, it's like my eyes only focused on Joseph. only before and after the song did i notice Jason. and if you watch the end of the video, you can see the height difference between those two right? let me ask you this. do you think Jason is short or is Joseph tall? HAHA.


p/s: the original version is good too but this is so much better :P

msg.

last night when i was about to go to sleep, something popped up in my laptop screen. yeah, it was you. you suddenly appeared and talked to me. said you woke up in the middle of the night cause you're feeling hungry. we had an unexpected conversation. somehow the way you talked and everything last night, it was different from the other day but quite similar to the previous you. the way we talked, everything seemed to become more and more familiar. i was so focused in this conversation that i felt like it took me back to two years back. when everything was still cool between us. ahh, miss the days when we used to talk everyday. i would tell you all my problems and you would always find the ways to make me smile.

but seriously, i was still kinda shocked to see you find me on msn and actually talk to me. eventhough it was a kinda short conversation but just like before, you never failed to make me smile. i was literally smiling which led to laughing in front of the screen, i swore that if anyone saw me they'd think i was mentally retarded. LOL .and right before you went back to sleep, the things you wrote, thank you. although things are different now, but thanks for at least trying to sort of save our friendship. maybe its cause you saw my status, maybe its something else, its okay. as long as the effort is there, i'm glad.

early morning rant.

was supposed to be studying when all of a sudden, i started to think about the past. last night i was at my cousin's house and my parents and i and their maid were talking. the maid has been working for my aunt(and now my cousins) for about 25 years already and yesterday they were talking about the times when i was just a kid. they were talking about how i used to follow the maid everywhere just because i was bored. then my aunt would ask me to stop following and go take a nap but i wouldn't listen. lots of good memories. and then it all came rushing back. i miss the past so so much. i miss my aunt. i miss my uncle. i miss my cousin. i miss my grandma. i miss how things used to be so perfect before. ah shit. crying at 4am is not professional. :( :(

but seriously, i would do anything just to go back to 15 years ago. i'd lose a month of sleeping time, i'd stop using the phone and pc, i'd even stop eating just to go back to the past. life was so easy back then. and everyone was happy. little did i knew that things changed so suddenly. people leave, people change. now, it's not the same anymore. honestly, i do not like how my life is going right now. so much have changed. what's worse is that all i can do is just sit and watch. there isn't much that i can do to make things easier. for me and for everyone. and you know what? the other day i was talking with my mum when suddenly she said "i wish my sister was still around". she has no idea how much it hurt me to hear her say that because it was very obvious that life haven't been treating her the way she's supposed to be treated and i cannot do anything about it. i'm not capable of giving her the best. :( and in the next few years, i'm sure there are gonna be more changes and i'm not liking it at all. i've never been good with changes and i hate how things change so fast. sometimes, i blame myself for some of the changes. i haven't been good enough, i've disappointed many people, i procrastinate a lot, i say what i don't really mean, all those things. *sigh

in short, my life is an epic fail. and that sucks.

101010 daddy's birthday :)

a very happy birthday to the birthday "boy" in the picture above :)


yeaap, it's daddy's birthday and this year was much more special. why? just because it falls on the 10th of October 2010, which in short is 10/10/10 :D wanted to make this year a special one for him but he kept saying no need. just a simple dinner would do. my dad's always like that. for himself, anything simple would be okay but for us, he would want to do the best. and that's why i love him. since young, he has never been loved or care for and now that he's a grown up man, surprisingly he knows how to love and take care of me and my mum and sister. although there were times when he doesn't know when or how to show his love and care and use harsh words instead of soft ones, we could still feel it. and that's enough. he's the type that does things to show his affection, not through words. so anyways, since he didn't want to celebrate, we gave in and said okay. the night before his birthday we went to have dinner at a restaurant. at night, my sister made him cards and stuff. she wrote on pieces of paper and stuck it at their room door, the staircase and also stuck the card on the staircase door. it's like following the clues to find the treasure. lol then in the morning, my mum made two red eggs and we gave it to him while singing two versions of happy birthday at 10:10:10am. he was sleeping when we started singing. kinda surprised him i guess. then at 11am when my dad sent my sister to sunday school, mum and i hurriedly went out and i bought him a phone. he's been looking at phones for so long but never want to buy one for himself. besides, he just got me a phone the day before his birthday so i decided to do the same and give him one. after buying we went straight home. later before cell group, i took his sim card, put it in the phone and wrapped it up. we brought the present to cell group and my mum did ask one of the cell group members to make a birthday cake for my dad. he didn't know about it so when they sang him happy birthday, i took out the cake. he looked surprised as well. then after cutting the cake, i rushed to take out the present and gave it to him. and the interesting part is this, i took out my phone and called him. so the present started ringing and boy was he surprised to see a phone in a box instead of something else(i think he was expecting belt or shirt). so yeah, mission accomplished. each one of us managed to surprise him on his birthday and hopefully it'll be a memorable one for him. :)

so yeah, happy birthday! selamat hari jadi! 生日快乐！I LOVE YOU ♥

bleh.

busy busy busy. so much things to do in just one month. i hope i'll survive until the end of the semester. lol it's only foundation and i'm dying. wonder what'll happen when i go to degree. cannot imagine that at all.

anyways, i realize that the busier i am, or in other words, the more things that i have to do, the sleepier and lazier i become. i think it's because of my upcoming midterms and assignments that i'm starting to feel so sleepy. and i tend to sleep a whole lot. i just took a 45 minute nap this afternoon and now it's only 8pm and i'm already feeling so cranky. i need lots of sleep!

what's worse now is that i feel worse than a pig. even pigs, when they're hungry they are energetic. for me now, i have zero energy. i'm like not capable of doing anything else other than sleep. i feel miserable. :(

is there any thing or food that you can do or eat/drink to keep you awake? especially during the night? i need some help here. professional help that is. my condition is getting worse and worse. D:

oh and what good topics are there for me to present for my final individual presentation for ecs? idk what to talk about and for this presentation, it's supposed to somewhat be a persuasive or informational one. besides, t's gotta be done by doing research and stuff, not just by experience only. so yeah, i'm still blur, blank and i just feel like sleeping. aargh! am i not worse than a pig? abit abit also feel like sleeping already.

and wish me luck for my economics midterm next tuesday. i'm still kinda blur on the previous two chapters that we've learned in the past two weeks. the demand and supply thing. i mean, it looks easy but somehow something is wrong with my brain and it can't seem to interpret the graph correctly. like the curves and movements on the graph, i get headaches when i look at em. *sigh* i think i'll stop thinking about this and just go and get a nap now at 8.15pm.

meet my new love, Vivian Dawson

it has been a very unproductive Sunday morning. i'm procrastinating again and again. i do have my notes and stuff in front of me, but then my eyes, hands and mind are focusing more on the laptop and song playing. i've been re-tweeting quotes the whole morning as well. gosh i hope this ends soon. gonna concentrate later. after this blog post. i hope. LOL exam is tomorrow and i'm still kinda blur. ughh hopefully i'll get through with it asap.

oh yeah, one thing. i just found out that there is actually a model named VIVIAN DAWSON. i know i'm outdated but just shut up. i'm not really up to date with these things one okay? i only found out when a facebook friend of mine mentioned about him last night. and guess what? that Vivian dude is hot and tall. he's like 1.9m tall? a little taller than my dad please. OMG *drools*:D he was the winner of CLEO's 50 Most Eligible Bachelors 2009. and below are some pictures of him. btw, heard that he's Jolin Tsai's rumored boyfriend? they were spotted in Tokyo about a week ago. O_O if he is, then she sure is one lucky bitch. i'm jealous. HAHA. anyways, why am i so excited when i heard about this dude? cause well, my Plurk name was Vivian Dawson. and it was actually a combination of my name and Shane's. yeah, i'm in love with Shane so i decided to use his last name. so Vivian Lee + Shane Dawson = Vivian Dawson :P

isn't he so very drool-able? XD imagine if we dated. then when people ask "Hey Vivian, who's your boyfriend?" and i'll be like "His name is Vivian." and when we get married, we'll both be Vivian Dawson. :DD lmfao it'll be so cool. awwww; *think too much

busyyy.

suddenly had the urge to blog. so yeah, i'm gonna be real busy starting today? idk but the few weeks ahead are gonna be hectic. i've got midterms and presentations and assignments and projects. D: in just five weeks(starting next week), i have like nine things to do. which include midterms and stuff. it's the time of the semester again where i'll busy right until after the final exams. lol busy much. then again, i'd definitely still have time to go online. cause that is a must. wonder what my life will be without the internet. :\

anyways, i'm having my maths midterm on monday and i'm kinda "studying" right now. heh wish me luck yo. and btw, my iTunes is back to normal! i seriously don't know why i didn't even think or bother to go and check it. it was really troublesome to use Windows Media Player for the past few months. D: well, it was okay but i still prefer iTunes. :) well, i gotta go study now. will be posting again soon. when i have the urge like how i did five minutes ago :D

i had a really really bad day today. i feel so trucked up at the moment and my tears won't stop flowing. i feel so lost right now. now that you're not here anymore, i really don't know who to turn to. if you were here, you'd know what to say and what to do. even if everything in the past was fake, that you were pretending all along, i'd still want you to know that you acted really well. at least i had the chance to know what a real friend would do when you're falling apart.

i feel better after letting it out now. *sigh

Hari Raya 2010

i absolutely love this year's raya. why? just because i get to go visiting since i missed out last year due to a youth rally that i joined. and also cause i get to eat masak hitam, which i've been craving since forever. on the first day, i went visiting with my family and four of my mum's colleagues and their family members. there was a total of 11 of us. we went to four houses and guess what? all four houses had masak hitam! i was so excited. ate so so much at all the houses. my stomach almost exploded. but what to do? once a year bah this :P

anyways, at the last house, when i got out of the car, there was this huge bee flying around. oh my goodness, it was so huge and was buzzing here and there. it was trying to get close to us. we were trying to avoid it when all of a sudden, it started flying towards me. idk why but it kept coming to my hair. it was so scary i swore i could've fainted right on the spot if it came any closer or touched my face or anywhere. then my dad asked me to go to the car and as i ran towards the car, the bee came along too. it was kinda stuck to the back side of my blouse? apuuuuu ~ i was so petrified. and being the usual me, i went into the car crying like some baby. lol then i saw them trying to shoo it away and when i turned to look, i saw Jia Ying's dad stepping on the bee, killing it right on the spot. thank God!

well, that house that we went to, it was a wooden house by the river. heard them saying that there are crocodiles there and they've seen it few times. O_O luckily it didn't appear when we were there. lol oh and when i looked towards the river, something caught my eye. know what is it? well, it's their toilet. unfortunately, i forgot to take picture of it. =.= but it was a wooden toilet. you'll need to walk on a plank of wood on the river to reach the toilet. it's like right above the water. the door of the toilet was open and well, there was nothing in it. no toilet bowl, no sink, no nothing. the only thing in there was a hole on the floor. i think you've already guessed it, you'll need to pee and shit through that hole. what the heck? so this thing still exist eh. LOL but it's funny. it's like when you pee or poop, it'll come falling down from the hole and into the water. imagine if you accidentally see someone do either one, it's gonna be so gross. ewwww. HAHA. well, we visited until around 1.30pm then went back home and rested.

the next day, which was yesterday, we went to Bintang at around 9.30am for the Human Life Service function thing. our city Mayor came to give a short speech as well. honestly, it was really sad that i wasn't able to attend the whole function since i had to leave early. saw a few special needs people there and it was heartbreaking for me to see them in their current condition. one of the guys had short arms and a little something went wrong with his face. really wished to go and hug him but i didn't have that courage :( frankly speaking, these special needs people, in my opinion are the most beautiful people in the world. why? because they have a wonderful heart and mind. they're all so innocent and see the world in a different angle. very different than how we normal people would. and like what the mayor mentioned in his speech, he said "to see the world through these children's eyes". and i agree with this statement of his. children are God's precious gift and we should love each and every one of them no matter how they look. they are after all, human as well. there is also a mini exhibition showing abortion and the fetus and their growth process in the womb of the mother.

so after the function, we went for lunch and went to buy some stuffs. reached home at around 12.30pm? i left home around 1.50pm, went to feed my car with some petrol and was off to pick june. reached atiya's house about 20 minutes later and spent around one hour plus at her house eating, talking, online-ing. lol took quite a lot of pics with her lappy. oh and we also took a family picture with her brother and parents as well.

then, Melo called and we headed to Roy's house. i thought the house would be kinda hard to find since Permy has always been really messy. well, that was what i thought. but thank goodness, it was really easy to find. just two turns from the main road and we're there! saw Valerie and two ladies at his house when we reached. at first, it was kinda awkward. but soon after, things started to umm "heat up". we started to eat and boy, the food was delicious. especially the masak hitam. oh and the cheese cake too. very very yummy :D then after eating, we spent like one whole hour talking and camwhoring with the kids. awwww, very very very adorable pls. all three of Roy's kids are so cute. especially Hassan. he is just as cute as how he looks in pictures. oh and the two daughters, words cannot describe how lovely they are. woooooo ~ i love kids and yeah, i love them too. HAHA. its a been a wonderful afternoon.

my baby sister turns 9 ❤

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING VALLAMY JANE :)

tfw.

it's been a long tuition free week. did lots of things in the past week. to be honest, my main point of this break is to study but in the end, thats the only thing i did the least. for the first three days of my holidays, i actually forgot what did i do. lmao i'm not kidding. i seriously do not remember what i did last friday, saturday and sunday. :O

but from monday onwards, i've been doing lots of stuff. like on monday morning, i stayed at home to study economics(yeah, not accounting). then around after lunch, msn-ed a little with siew and she told me she was still craving for waffles. since i wanted my Belgian Chocolate as well, we decided to go to Bintang. lol i know right, driving all the way to town just for some waffles and drink. then on Tuesday, i went to school. to study with June and Atiya. Siew was there too with her group members doing their Physics project. some wind turbine thingy. i think we ended up talking more than studying/doing project. then in the evening, went to KFC at emart to berbuka puasa with Atiya. she looked really excited cause this is her first time berbuka-ing with her friends.

then on wednesday, i'm supposed to go to school too but something came up and i didn't go. went to Bintang with my mum and Auntie Sarah to buy my sister's birthday present. had lunch with them then sent mummy back to the office. then on thursday, went Bintang again with June, Siew and Pan. watched "Old Cow vs Tender Grass" then bought *ahem* present and went around for a while. oh and did i mention that we went to Secret Recipe? i finally got to eat the Macadamia White Chocolate cake. woooooooh ~ and so did June as well :D after that Siew dropped us off at my place as she had to go back to eat something her mum cooked and bathed. After that i went to pick her up and we went to X Cuisine for dinner. After dinner, we went to Boulevard. walked around for a little bit then we went to the funny thing is, after our little window shopping session, our 嘴痒 so we went to KFC and ordered some food. wth, we were literally eating the whole day. reached home around 10.30pm and boy, was i exhausted.

as you can see, i've been wasting time instead of doing important things during this break. and sad enough, there won't be anymore one week break until the end of the Semester. but at least i had fun this week. even though we all wasted so much time, money and energy.

some advices to guide you through life.

HANDBOOK OF LIFE

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time for prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9 Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.


Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Always speak the truth even if it leads to your death.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake up alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Innermost is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not the least:

40. Please share this with all your relatives and close friends.

Jay Chou is #3 on 'Top 20 most downloaded artists worldwide'!

Ovi - Nokia's internet and music download service - released the results of a research based on downloads made by users of their Unlimited Music download service from launch to 10 August 2010. Ovi’s unlimited music download service is available in 36 countries around the world.

The complete list of the Top 20 Most Downloaded Artists World Wide goes as follows:

1. Lady Gaga
2. Michael Jackson
3. Jay Chou
4. The Black Eyed Peas
5. Madonna
6. Rihanna
7. Beyoncé
8. David Guetta
9. Eminem
10. U2
11. Queen
12. Britney Spears
13. Shakira
14. Linkin Park
15. Coldplay
16. Green Day
17. P!nk
18. Robbie Williams
19. Akon
20. Bon Jovi

Source: Ovi.com

Magic Power (魔幻力量) - 我是谁 我是谁 我是谁

我是誰 你是否常常這樣問自己
Wo shi shei Ni shi fou chang chang zhe yang wen zi ji
Who am I? Do you always ask yourself this?
我是誰 總是活在別人的期望裡
Wo shi shei Zong shi huo zai bie ren de qi wang li
Who am I? Always living up to other people's expectations
我是誰 是誰又擅自幫你定義了
Wo shi shei Shi shei you shan zi bang ni ding yi le
Who am I? Who made the decision for you again?
你是誰 只有不是自己才安全
Ni shi shei Zhi shi bu shi zi ji cai an quan
Who are you? You're only safe when you're not yourself

為什麼 你以為這個世界很美麗
Wei she me Ni yi wei zhe ge shi jie hen mei li
Why? You think this world is very beautiful
為什麼 你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
Wei she me Ni ai zhe ge shi jie sheng guo ai zi ji
Why? You love this world more than you love yourself
為什麼 這個世界不給你平等待遇
Wei she me Zhe ge shi jie bu ge ni ping deng dai yu
Why? This world doesn't treat you fairly
為什麼 到底做錯了什麼
Wei she me Dao di zuo cuo le she me
Why? Just what did you do wrong?

朋友都說你太 太 太奇怪
Peng you dou shuo ni tai Tai Tai qi guai
Friends say you're too too too weird
在背後把你當成笑 笑 笑話看
Zai bei hou ba ni dang cheng xiao Xiao Xiao hua kan
Behind your back they treat you like a j-j-joke
每一個動作都被瞎猜
Mei yi ge dong zuo dou bei xia cai
They blindly guess your every movement
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在
Ta men shuo ni shi ge bu neng rong ren de cun zai
They say they can't tolerate your existence

你想要的很 很 很簡單
Ni xiang yao de hen Hen Hen jian dan
What you want is so so so simple
不過就是最普通的 的 的平凡
Bu guo jiu shi zui pu tong de De De ping fan
Just the most ordinary, the simplest things
誠實做自己有時候很難
Cheng shi zuo zi ji you shi hou hen nan
Sometimes it's so hard to be your true self
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看
Dan shi qing ni yong gan de shi yi ci kan kan
But please bravely try for once

無論他們又說什麼 閒言閒語無法傷害我
Wu lun ta men you shuo she me Xian yan Xian yu wu fa shang hai wo
No matter what they're saying again, useless gossip won't hurt me
世界上只有一個我 沒人能代替的我
Shi jie shang zhi you yi ge wo Mei ren neng dai ti de wo
There's only one me in the world, a me that no-one can replace
無論他們又做什麼 小動作無法打敗我
Wu lun ta men you zuo she me Xiao dong zuo wu fa da bai wo
No matter what they do again, those little actions won't defeat me
我知道自己是最美麗的
Wo zhi dao zi ji shi zui mei li de
I know I'm the most beautiful
The most beautiful

會不會 上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
Hui bu hui Shang di ba ni de lung hun fang cuo le shen ti
Could it be, that God put your soul in the wrong body?
會不會 是故意整你不是不小心
Hui bu hui Shi gu yi zheng ni bu shi bu xiao xin
Could it be, He's purposely pranking you, not accidentally?
會不會 你常常都覺得力不從心
Hui bu hui Ni chang chang dou jue de li bu cong xin
Could it be, you always feel weaker than you wish?
會不會 堅持要做自己太危險
Hui bu hui Jian chi yao zuo zi ji tai wei xian
Could it be, persistence to be yourself is too dangerous?

憑什麼 難道比較特別就是不對
Ping she me Nan dao bi jiao te bie jiu shi bu dui
What proof is there? Is it really wrong to be more special?
憑什麼 先下了註解在認識之前
Ping she me Xian xia le zhu jie zai ren shi zhi qian
What proof is there? Why do you make assumptions before knowing me?
憑什麼 只不過想認真的活一遍
Ping she me Zhi bu guo xiang ren zhen de huo yi bian
What proof is there? I just want to live properly for once
憑什麼 隨便就把人定罪
Ping she me Sui bian jiu ba ren ding zui
What proof is there? You conveniently give someone a conviction

我是誰 這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
Wo shi shei Zhe ge wen ti kun rao ni duo shao tian duo shao ye
Who am I? How many days and nights has this question troubled you?
我是誰 誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
Wo shi shei Shei you zi ge jue ding ni zen me cai shi dui
Who am I? Who has the right to decide who you should be?
我是誰 我是誰 我是誰
Wo shi shei Wo shi shei Wo shi shei
Who am I, who am I, who am I?
我就是我 你就是你
Wo jiu shi wo Ni jiu shi ni
I'm me and you're you
認真做自己的人最美麗
Ren zhen zuo zi ji de ren zui mei li
People who are themselves are the most beautiful

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This is a very lovely song. Saw the MV on television the other day and I fell in love with the song instantly. The lyrics is meaningful too. :)

break

my one and a half week break starts today. well, yesterday afternoon to be exact. but i got a feeling that it's not gonna be a fun one cause exams is on the monday after holiday ends. very sad about it pls. so yeah, i need to study and also complete some homework as well as prepare for the upcoming assignments which are gonna start piling up after the holidays. :( so little time, so much to do. and one thing, something weird happened to me yesterday afternoon. i somehow suddenly feel very terrible and had this urge to cry. idk what the firetruck happened but it went on until i went to sleep. i'm still okay right now but who knows what's gonna happen later when i'm all alone at home. D: bahh, don't wanna think about these things. well, i'm off to copyfinish up my maths homework. toodles ~

some funny and stupid things.

Hope this will make you smile :D

Old movie. New watch? Watch it out!

You need to hold the trigger to shoot someone or...?

Hmmm.... aero planes in the Trojan War?

Bows, arrows, ... and cellphones in the olden days?

And here comes everyone's favorite....

Wow! In those days,... Adidas? Hmmm....branded Pirate!
But not as stupid as...

Or this??

This is what sad looks like

This is what sorry looks like

This is what bad spelling look like

This is what intimacy looks like

This is what deaf looks like

This is what stupid looks like

This is what 'oh shit' looks like

This is what your tax dollars look like

This is what McBurndt looks like

This is what 'I can wait' looks like

This is what a Nightmare looks like

This is what a blonde's car looks like

so yeah, this is what i found in my inbox just now while searching for nice or funny e-mails to forward to my mum. lol i like forwarding funny e-mails to my mum to entertain her when she's at work.