Wednesday, September 29, 2010


busy busy busy. so much things to do in just one month. i hope i'll survive until the end of the semester. lol it's only foundation and i'm dying. wonder what'll happen when i go to degree. cannot imagine that at all.
anyways, i realize that the busier i am, or in other words, the more things that i have to do, the sleepier and lazier i become. i think it's because of my upcoming midterms and assignments that i'm starting to feel so sleepy. and i tend to sleep a whole lot. i just took a 45 minute nap this afternoon and now it's only 8pm and i'm already feeling so cranky. i need lots of sleep!
what's worse now is that i feel worse than a pig. even pigs, when they're hungry they are energetic. for me now, i have zero energy. i'm like not capable of doing anything else other than sleep. i feel miserable. :(
is there any thing or food that you can do or eat/drink to keep you awake? especially during the night? i need some help here. professional help that is. my condition is getting worse and worse. D:
oh and what good topics are there for me to present for my final individual presentation for ecs? idk what to talk about and for this presentation, it's supposed to somewhat be a persuasive or informational one. besides, t's gotta be done by doing research and stuff, not just by experience only. so yeah, i'm still blur, blank and i just feel like sleeping. aargh! am i not worse than a pig? abit abit also feel like sleeping already.
and wish me luck for my economics midterm next tuesday. i'm still kinda blur on the previous two chapters that we've learned in the past two weeks. the demand and supply thing. i mean, it looks easy but somehow something is wrong with my brain and it can't seem to interpret the graph correctly. like the curves and movements on the graph, i get headaches when i look at em. *sigh* i think i'll stop thinking about this and just go and get a nap now at 8.15pm.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

meet my new love, Vivian Dawson

it has been a very unproductive Sunday morning. i'm procrastinating again and again. i do have my notes and stuff in front of me, but then my eyes, hands and mind are focusing more on the laptop and song playing. i've been re-tweeting quotes the whole morning as well. gosh i hope this ends soon. gonna concentrate later. after this blog post. i hope. LOL exam is tomorrow and i'm still kinda blur. ughh hopefully i'll get through with it asap.

oh yeah, one thing. i just found out that there is actually a model named VIVIAN DAWSON. i know i'm outdated but just shut up. i'm not really up to date with these things one okay? i only found out when a facebook friend of mine mentioned about him last night. and guess what? that Vivian dude is hot and tall. he's like 1.9m tall? a little taller than my dad please. OMG *drools*:D he was the winner of CLEO's 50 Most Eligible Bachelors 2009. and below are some pictures of him. btw, heard that he's Jolin Tsai's rumored boyfriend? they were spotted in Tokyo about a week ago. O_O if he is, then she sure is one lucky bitch. i'm jealous. HAHA. anyways, why am i so excited when i heard about this dude? cause well, my Plurk name was Vivian Dawson. and it was actually a combination of my name and Shane's. yeah, i'm in love with Shane so i decided to use his last name. so Vivian Lee + Shane Dawson = Vivian Dawson :P

isn't he so very drool-able? XD imagine if we dated. then when people ask "Hey Vivian, who's your boyfriend?" and i'll be like "His name is Vivian." and when we get married, we'll both be Vivian Dawson. :DD lmfao it'll be so cool. awwww; *think too much

Saturday, September 25, 2010


suddenly had the urge to blog. so yeah, i'm gonna be real busy starting today? idk but the few weeks ahead are gonna be hectic. i've got midterms and presentations and assignments and projects. D: in just five weeks(starting next week), i have like nine things to do. which include midterms and stuff. it's the time of the semester again where i'll busy right until after the final exams. lol busy much. then again, i'd definitely still have time to go online. cause that is a must. wonder what my life will be without the internet. :\
anyways, i'm having my maths midterm on monday and i'm kinda "studying" right now. heh wish me luck yo. and btw, my iTunes is back to normal! i seriously don't know why i didn't even think or bother to go and check it. it was really troublesome to use Windows Media Player for the past few months. D: well, it was okay but i still prefer iTunes. :) well, i gotta go study now. will be posting again soon. when i have the urge like how i did five minutes ago :D

Monday, September 20, 2010

i had a really really bad day today. i feel so trucked up at the moment and my tears won't stop flowing. i feel so lost right now. now that you're not here anymore, i really don't know who to turn to. if you were here, you'd know what to say and what to do. even if everything in the past was fake, that you were pretending all along, i'd still want you to know that you acted really well. at least i had the chance to know what a real friend would do when you're falling apart.

i feel better after letting it out now. *sigh

Monday, September 13, 2010

Hari Raya 2010

i absolutely love this year's raya. why? just because i get to go visiting since i missed out last year due to a youth rally that i joined. and also cause i get to eat masak hitam, which i've been craving since forever. on the first day, i went visiting with my family and four of my mum's colleagues and their family members. there was a total of 11 of us. we went to four houses and guess what? all four houses had masak hitam! i was so excited. ate so so much at all the houses. my stomach almost exploded. but what to do? once a year bah this :P

anyways, at the last house, when i got out of the car, there was this huge bee flying around. oh my goodness, it was so huge and was buzzing here and there. it was trying to get close to us. we were trying to avoid it when all of a sudden, it started flying towards me. idk why but it kept coming to my hair. it was so scary i swore i could've fainted right on the spot if it came any closer or touched my face or anywhere. then my dad asked me to go to the car and as i ran towards the car, the bee came along too. it was kinda stuck to the back side of my blouse? apuuuuu ~ i was so petrified. and being the usual me, i went into the car crying like some baby. lol then i saw them trying to shoo it away and when i turned to look, i saw Jia Ying's dad stepping on the bee, killing it right on the spot. thank God!

well, that house that we went to, it was a wooden house by the river. heard them saying that there are crocodiles there and they've seen it few times. O_O luckily it didn't appear when we were there. lol oh and when i looked towards the river, something caught my eye. know what is it? well, it's their toilet. unfortunately, i forgot to take picture of it. =.= but it was a wooden toilet. you'll need to walk on a plank of wood on the river to reach the toilet. it's like right above the water. the door of the toilet was open and well, there was nothing in it. no toilet bowl, no sink, no nothing. the only thing in there was a hole on the floor. i think you've already guessed it, you'll need to pee and shit through that hole. what the heck? so this thing still exist eh. LOL but it's funny. it's like when you pee or poop, it'll come falling down from the hole and into the water. imagine if you accidentally see someone do either one, it's gonna be so gross. ewwww. HAHA. well, we visited until around 1.30pm then went back home and rested.

the next day, which was yesterday, we went to Bintang at around 9.30am for the Human Life Service function thing. our city Mayor came to give a short speech as well. honestly, it was really sad that i wasn't able to attend the whole function since i had to leave early. saw a few special needs people there and it was heartbreaking for me to see them in their current condition. one of the guys had short arms and a little something went wrong with his face. really wished to go and hug him but i didn't have that courage :( frankly speaking, these special needs people, in my opinion are the most beautiful people in the world. why? because they have a wonderful heart and mind. they're all so innocent and see the world in a different angle. very different than how we normal people would. and like what the mayor mentioned in his speech, he said "to see the world through these children's eyes". and i agree with this statement of his. children are God's precious gift and we should love each and every one of them no matter how they look. they are after all, human as well. there is also a mini exhibition showing abortion and the fetus and their growth process in the womb of the mother.

so after the function, we went for lunch and went to buy some stuffs. reached home at around 12.30pm? i left home around 1.50pm, went to feed my car with some petrol and was off to pick june. reached atiya's house about 20 minutes later and spent around one hour plus at her house eating, talking, online-ing. lol took quite a lot of pics with her lappy. oh and we also took a family picture with her brother and parents as well.

then, Melo called and we headed to Roy's house. i thought the house would be kinda hard to find since Permy has always been really messy. well, that was what i thought. but thank goodness, it was really easy to find. just two turns from the main road and we're there! saw Valerie and two ladies at his house when we reached. at first, it was kinda awkward. but soon after, things started to umm "heat up". we started to eat and boy, the food was delicious. especially the masak hitam. oh and the cheese cake too. very very yummy :D then after eating, we spent like one whole hour talking and camwhoring with the kids. awwww, very very very adorable pls. all three of Roy's kids are so cute. especially Hassan. he is just as cute as how he looks in pictures. oh and the two daughters, words cannot describe how lovely they are. woooooo ~ i love kids and yeah, i love them too. HAHA. its a been a wonderful afternoon.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

my baby sister turns 9 ❤



it's been a long tuition free week. did lots of things in the past week. to be honest, my main point of this break is to study but in the end, thats the only thing i did the least. for the first three days of my holidays, i actually forgot what did i do. lmao i'm not kidding. i seriously do not remember what i did last friday, saturday and sunday. :O

but from monday onwards, i've been doing lots of stuff. like on monday morning, i stayed at home to study economics(yeah, not accounting). then around after lunch, msn-ed a little with siew and she told me she was still craving for waffles. since i wanted my Belgian Chocolate as well, we decided to go to Bintang. lol i know right, driving all the way to town just for some waffles and drink. then on Tuesday, i went to school. to study with June and Atiya. Siew was there too with her group members doing their Physics project. some wind turbine thingy. i think we ended up talking more than studying/doing project. then in the evening, went to KFC at emart to berbuka puasa with Atiya. she looked really excited cause this is her first time berbuka-ing with her friends.

then on wednesday, i'm supposed to go to school too but something came up and i didn't go. went to Bintang with my mum and Auntie Sarah to buy my sister's birthday present. had lunch with them then sent mummy back to the office. then on thursday, went Bintang again with June, Siew and Pan. watched "Old Cow vs Tender Grass" then bought *ahem* present and went around for a while. oh and did i mention that we went to Secret Recipe? i finally got to eat the Macadamia White Chocolate cake. woooooooh ~ and so did June as well :D after that Siew dropped us off at my place as she had to go back to eat something her mum cooked and bathed. After that i went to pick her up and we went to X Cuisine for dinner. After dinner, we went to Boulevard. walked around for a little bit then we went to the funny thing is, after our little window shopping session, our 嘴痒 so we went to KFC and ordered some food. wth, we were literally eating the whole day. reached home around 10.30pm and boy, was i exhausted.

as you can see, i've been wasting time instead of doing important things during this break. and sad enough, there won't be anymore one week break until the end of the Semester. but at least i had fun this week. even though we all wasted so much time, money and energy.

Monday, September 6, 2010

some advices to guide you through life.



1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time for prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9 Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.


11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.


32. Do the right thing!
33. Always speak the truth even if it leads to your death.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake up alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Innermost is always happy. So, be happy.

Last but not the least:

40. Please share this with all your relatives and close friends.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Jay Chou is #3 on 'Top 20 most downloaded artists worldwide'!

Ovi - Nokia's internet and music download service - released the results of a research based on downloads made by users of their Unlimited Music download service from launch to 10 August 2010. Ovi’s unlimited music download service is available in 36 countries around the world.

The complete list of the Top 20 Most Downloaded Artists World Wide goes as follows:

1. Lady Gaga
2. Michael Jackson
3. Jay Chou
4. The Black Eyed Peas
5. Madonna
6. Rihanna
7. Beyoncé
8. David Guetta
9. Eminem
10. U2
11. Queen
12. Britney Spears
13. Shakira
14. Linkin Park
15. Coldplay
16. Green Day
17. P!nk
18. Robbie Williams
19. Akon
20. Bon Jovi


Friday, September 3, 2010

Magic Power (魔幻力量) - 我是谁 我是谁 我是谁

我是誰 你是否常常這樣問自己
Wo shi shei Ni shi fou chang chang zhe yang wen zi ji
Who am I? Do you always ask yourself this?
我是誰 總是活在別人的期望裡
Wo shi shei Zong shi huo zai bie ren de qi wang li
Who am I? Always living up to other people's expectations
我是誰 是誰又擅自幫你定義了
Wo shi shei Shi shei you shan zi bang ni ding yi le
Who am I? Who made the decision for you again?
你是誰 只有不是自己才安全
Ni shi shei Zhi shi bu shi zi ji cai an quan
Who are you? You're only safe when you're not yourself

為什麼 你以為這個世界很美麗
Wei she me Ni yi wei zhe ge shi jie hen mei li
Why? You think this world is very beautiful
為什麼 你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
Wei she me Ni ai zhe ge shi jie sheng guo ai zi ji
Why? You love this world more than you love yourself
為什麼 這個世界不給你平等待遇
Wei she me Zhe ge shi jie bu ge ni ping deng dai yu
Why? This world doesn't treat you fairly
為什麼 到底做錯了什麼
Wei she me Dao di zuo cuo le she me
Why? Just what did you do wrong?

朋友都說你太 太 太奇怪
Peng you dou shuo ni tai Tai Tai qi guai
Friends say you're too too too weird
在背後把你當成笑 笑 笑話看
Zai bei hou ba ni dang cheng xiao Xiao Xiao hua kan
Behind your back they treat you like a j-j-joke
Mei yi ge dong zuo dou bei xia cai
They blindly guess your every movement
Ta men shuo ni shi ge bu neng rong ren de cun zai
They say they can't tolerate your existence

你想要的很 很 很簡單
Ni xiang yao de hen Hen Hen jian dan
What you want is so so so simple
不過就是最普通的 的 的平凡
Bu guo jiu shi zui pu tong de De De ping fan
Just the most ordinary, the simplest things
Cheng shi zuo zi ji you shi hou hen nan
Sometimes it's so hard to be your true self
Dan shi qing ni yong gan de shi yi ci kan kan
But please bravely try for once

無論他們又說什麼 閒言閒語無法傷害我
Wu lun ta men you shuo she me Xian yan Xian yu wu fa shang hai wo
No matter what they're saying again, useless gossip won't hurt me
世界上只有一個我 沒人能代替的我
Shi jie shang zhi you yi ge wo Mei ren neng dai ti de wo
There's only one me in the world, a me that no-one can replace
無論他們又做什麼 小動作無法打敗我
Wu lun ta men you zuo she me Xiao dong zuo wu fa da bai wo
No matter what they do again, those little actions won't defeat me
Wo zhi dao zi ji shi zui mei li de
I know I'm the most beautiful
The most beautiful

會不會 上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
Hui bu hui Shang di ba ni de lung hun fang cuo le shen ti
Could it be, that God put your soul in the wrong body?
會不會 是故意整你不是不小心
Hui bu hui Shi gu yi zheng ni bu shi bu xiao xin
Could it be, He's purposely pranking you, not accidentally?
會不會 你常常都覺得力不從心
Hui bu hui Ni chang chang dou jue de li bu cong xin
Could it be, you always feel weaker than you wish?
會不會 堅持要做自己太危險
Hui bu hui Jian chi yao zuo zi ji tai wei xian
Could it be, persistence to be yourself is too dangerous?

憑什麼 難道比較特別就是不對
Ping she me Nan dao bi jiao te bie jiu shi bu dui
What proof is there? Is it really wrong to be more special?
憑什麼 先下了註解在認識之前
Ping she me Xian xia le zhu jie zai ren shi zhi qian
What proof is there? Why do you make assumptions before knowing me?
憑什麼 只不過想認真的活一遍
Ping she me Zhi bu guo xiang ren zhen de huo yi bian
What proof is there? I just want to live properly for once
憑什麼 隨便就把人定罪
Ping she me Sui bian jiu ba ren ding zui
What proof is there? You conveniently give someone a conviction

我是誰 這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
Wo shi shei Zhe ge wen ti kun rao ni duo shao tian duo shao ye
Who am I? How many days and nights has this question troubled you?
我是誰 誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
Wo shi shei Shei you zi ge jue ding ni zen me cai shi dui
Who am I? Who has the right to decide who you should be?
我是誰 我是誰 我是誰
Wo shi shei Wo shi shei Wo shi shei
Who am I, who am I, who am I?
我就是我 你就是你
Wo jiu shi wo Ni jiu shi ni
I'm me and you're you
Ren zhen zuo zi ji de ren zui mei li
People who are themselves are the most beautiful


This is a very lovely song. Saw the MV on television the other day and I fell in love with the song instantly. The lyrics is meaningful too. :)


my one and a half week break starts today. well, yesterday afternoon to be exact. but i got a feeling that it's not gonna be a fun one cause exams is on the monday after holiday ends. very sad about it pls. so yeah, i need to study and also complete some homework as well as prepare for the upcoming assignments which are gonna start piling up after the holidays. :( so little time, so much to do. and one thing, something weird happened to me yesterday afternoon. i somehow suddenly feel very terrible and had this urge to cry. idk what the firetruck happened but it went on until i went to sleep. i'm still okay right now but who knows what's gonna happen later when i'm all alone at home. D: bahh, don't wanna think about these things. well, i'm off to copyfinish up my maths homework. toodles ~