Sunday, May 30, 2010

flashbacks;



after one month and two days of sending that message to him through facebook, he finally replied. my heart ached when i saw the message. seriously, i never knew knowing the truth would hit me that hard. he said he never lied, that all those things he told me was true. and i really want to believe him, i really do. but im confused. im having second thoughts. the flashbacks are playing in my mind like a silent movie. i cried the moment i saw his reply. that first sentence that he wrote, i cried instantly upon reading it. you know, its good that he replied but i dont know. hes already moved on. good for him. but im still here. stuck in the past. i mean, i wasnt even the one who was so serious but i was the one that got hurt the most. you know what? i really really want to know whats going on in his mind. i want to know what is he thinking. im not a good guesser and i will never figure it out if he doesnt tell me. but at least he replied. ive finally got the answer ive been waiting for, for two years and two months. its not really like what ive expected but at least everything that he wanted to say, he wrote it out. my two years of waiting didnt come to a waste.

thinking back, we really did have many good times together. i miss signing in msn the moment i came home from school just to talk to you. i miss out late night talks about anything and everything. i miss how you would always be there when i needed you. i miss how you can make me smile even when im crying. i miss having you around in msn cause we're like miles apart from each other. but its already been so long. i should be moving on now. its gonna be hard but i'll do my best. i know im strong enough to do this because in the past two years, ive done an excellent job of not mixing my real feelings together with the expression on my face. ive managed to hide my inner self from the real world for two years. its more than good already.

still, i cried. thats the only part of me that is weak. crying. i cannot stop myself from doing that and i hate it. i hate crying. it gives me a headache after a while and it gives me ugly swollen eyes. and that soft heart of mine. just a short message with a bit of sweet words and im starting to feel that you weren't wrong. how can i ever change this habit of mine. and are you really coming back end of the year? its been more than a year since you came back, so are you serious about coming back this year? honestly, i dont really feel like seeing you if you really are coming back. not to say i dont want to see but can we not meet and not talk and just not have any contact at all? im just worried that if i see you, i might have some crazy emotional breakdown. i know that writing all this makes it sound like im avoiding you, like im trying to avoid reality but i dont deny it. i do admit that im still afraid. afraid of having anything to do with you. im not strong enough. but i'll learn. try to stand up and smile, like how i usually do when you're not around anymore.

but all in all, i still want to thank you. thank you for everything you've said and done. i really appreciate everything. whether you're telling the truth or not, whether i believe you or not, thank you.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Jo;



im gonna miss you so much.
hope that someday fate will bring us together again.
all the best in your studies and everything k?
remember that God will always be with you.
:)

Monday, May 17, 2010

WTH?!

Originally "Jay Chou Singapore World Tour Concert 2010" was to be held on the 24th of July, the tickets were sold out in 2 hours, on the 23rd of April they added an additional night, the tickets sold out in 3 hours, they added a third night on the 25th, it sold out within 90 minutes. The main organisers are discussing whether they can add a fourth night.


WALAO EH. GOT SO SERIOUS MAH? AND TO THINK I'D WANT TO TRY MY LUCK TO BUY HIS CONCERT TICKET. NO MORE HOPE AH. I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIS MALAYSIAN CONCERT, NEXT YEAR THEN. O_O

Sunday, May 16, 2010

watching the sunrise;


Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pangs of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past. And sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didn’t do.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Superman Can't Fly / Chao Ren Bu Hui Fei 超人不会飞 - Jay Chou 周杰伦

the official MV is out!
do enjoy :)





妈妈说很多事别太计较
只是使命感找到了我我睡不着
如果说骂人要有点技巧
我会加点旋律你会觉得超屌
我的枪不会装弹药
所以放心不会有人倒
我拍青锋侠不需要替身
因为自信是我绘画的颜料

我做很多事背后的意义并非你们想象
拍个电视纯为了友情与兄弟间的梦想
收视率再高也难抗衡我的伟大理想
因为我的人生无需再多一笔那奖项
我不知道何时变成了所谓的那榜样
被狗仔拍的那边装着要道歉的模样
怎样

我唱的歌词要有点文化
因为随时会被当教材
cnn能不能等英文好一点再访
时代杂志封面能不能重拍
随时随地注意形象
要控制饮食不然就跟杜莎夫人蜡像的我不像
好莱钨的中国戏院地上有很多手印脚印
何时才能看见我的脚..oh~

如果超人会飞
那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界
会让我觉得好一些
拯救地球好累
虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没
因为超人不能流眼泪

唱歌要拿最佳男歌手
拍电影也不能只拿个最佳新人
你不参加颁奖典礼就是没礼貌
你去参加就是代表你很在乎
得奖时你感动落泪
人家就会觉得你夸张做作
你没表情别人就会说太嚣张
如果你天生这表情
那些人甚至会怪你妈妈
结果最后是别人在得奖
你也要给予充分的掌声与微笑
开的车不能太好
住的楼不能太高
我到底是一个创作歌手还是好人好事代表
专辑一出就必须是冠军
拍了电影就必须要大卖
只能说当超人真的好难

如果超人会飞
那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界
会让我觉得好一些 oh
拯救地球好累
虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没
因为超人不能流眼泪

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

busy busy busy. a very busy week indeed. hope i can make it to the end of the week alive D:

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

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is this a spam email? a few of my friends say that its real but i still think that its kinda like spam. have you received this kinda email before? O_O


p/s: ignore the many arrows. it looked cool so i decided to add it in all directions XD

Sunday, May 2, 2010

driving FAIL!

EPIC PHAIL. i have never in my life seen such a driver before. whats more, she(yeah, anyone wouldve guessed that its a woman driver) is actually driving a merc. NOT a proton. LOL





jay chou is a porn star?!

WARNING : content may be stink. wtf i meant, this might insult some of his fans, dont get me wrong, im a hugeass fan of jay chou and i love him to bits. i just fund this video somewhere in youtube while searching for his old songs. :)


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say whaaaatt? JAY CHOU IS A PORN STAR?! seriously? O_O oh my gosh, this you gotta see to believe. now take a very deep breath. *inhale exhale inhale exhale* get ready people cause here we go ...


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what do you think? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


okaaaaay, so maybe that doesnt really look like him. but the dude/lady who uploaded the video in youtube tought he was jay chou. and there are also comments saying that the dude in the video looks alot like jay. there was even one who said they look exactly the same. ROFL XD