do you know?

the weird guy with the binoculars is back.
this morning while in the living room i heard my dogs bark.
when i looked out, i saw half a head and a binocular. @@
i almost freaked out. lol
ive seen him once before, a few months back i think.
but then, it turns out that the man is one of the sesco people.
i remember seeing him for the first time,
he went around the neighborhood looking into people's houses.

oh and my room stinks!
idk but i think sth's wrong with the aircond.
dont know when the aircond man is coming
but for all i know, i'll be sleeping with only a stand fan tonight.
gosh, i hope the fugly smell would go away soon
cause its getting really hot in here :\


btw, im really really tired.
im tired of all this drama
and i think im gonna get sick very soon.
有时候，我觉得自己真的很没有用。
我什么都不会，我只会哭。
我该怎么办呢？

HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY!


member of famous Taiwan boy band Fahrenheit 飞轮海,
Calvin, also the tallest of the 4, was the 3rd member to be liked by me.
(wtf i sounded like im writing some essay or article LOL)
i remember hw much i liked him 2 years ago.
but shortly after this obsession, i changed to darling Joe.
and guess what? im still not over him after 2 years :D

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saw this cute gay couple at Boulevard the other day.
they were in the hypermarket and walked to err "Cindy" looking for hair clips.
awww, theyre so in love <3

LOL anyways, sth interesting happened this morning.
i was downstairs studying and watching tv.
well, i studied and rested and continued to study and rest again.
so while resting, i went to watch tv.
all of a sudden, my phone rang.
nobody called la, it was a text message.
my usual message tone goes like this -- >"Hi sweety, text message".
the funny thing is my phone kinda got jammed when receiving the message.
so from what i heard, my message tone sounded like "Hi sweety, text message (pause) bitch".
it was like soooooo omfg la.
=_______________________="


ps: im going to school tomorrow.
pps: i know i know, like, finally rite? ehehehehe

i have the sickest family ever.
theyre all wackos & theyre three in a trillion :O

about my previous post,
it was supposed to be a lifeless one
but suddenly Joe started appearing in my head/phone/everywhere,
and ive decided to make it into a not so dead post.

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anyways,
ive been thinking alot since yesterday.
yes, im in my emo mood again.
but well honestly speaking,
i really really miss the past.
everything was great.
back then, life wasnt as bad as it seemed.
if only i had a time machine,
if only i could turn back time,
if only i knew that things would turn out this way,
if only i had taken things more seriously,
if only i wasnt so stubborn,
if only i would think more than twice before saying/doing anything,
if only they were still here.
i want to go back to when i was a kid.
i miss the laughters,
i miss the tears,
life was much easier,
ahh, those were the years.

seriously, i dont like whats been happening lately.
so much have changed over the past decade.
im already 17 and turning 18 in three months.
where is the road im heading?
ive disappointed so many people,
ive even let myself down.
how could i ever be so selfish?
if i had jst one wish,
i'd wish to go back in time and start all over.
and maybe, things wouldnt be like how it is now.

urghh, this post is totally messed up.
but whatevs, im really tired already.
i want to give up.
i want to sleep and never wake up.
i want to disappear.

and before you say anything about me writing this post,
remember, you dont know how it feels to be me.
so please, dont say anything.
im jst sick of life and i need to let it out
since nobody bothers to listen/care.

well, at least im feeling abit better now.

:O

i somehow find no more reason for me to continue living.
i know i know, its an awful thought but its true lor.
idk la, life seems very meaningless to me right at this moment.
maybe its some mixed up feeling of mine
but uhh, i think the only thing that keeps me alive is this (see below)

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YES!
he is the reason im still here.
struggling hard to continue on with my life.

i bet the world would be a much better place if im not around.

ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
HOW DID U
LOL!!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
real name ar? or nick name ?
SO CUTE LARHHH!!!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
SO HE DIDNT LIE TO ME
OMG
hahahaha!! <33
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
haha
wei
dun make me high
;DD
his reli cute lar..
haha
omgggg
seee him once every two weeks only
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
T___________T
SAD
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
HAHA
OH M GEE LA
LOL!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
reli cute!
now can't stop picturing those moments whr i keep bugging him LOL!!
him and his cute+blur face

now this is very roflmfao xD

정말 스트레스입니다 .
난 도망 가고 싶어,
정말 다 지겨워 .
누군가가 날 구할 수 있습니까?
난 더 이상 참을 수 없다고 생각 .
난 잠들려고 모든 걸 잊고 싶어요. :(

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!