Friday, August 29, 2008


im at my cousin's house now. the internet line here is so good. unlike the one at home. goshh

well, tomorrow is the day.
its Father Stan Fortuna.
the 2-Day Youth Rally.
OMG i cant wait ! (:


finally i can blog. omg. the bloody internet line has been fcuking bad. uhhhs;

so anyways, Brendan and his mum came to take away the car on Wednesday night. sad sad. im gonna miss that car alot. well, all of us do. its like such a pretty car bahh. then yesterday was ok lor. kena tahan-ed in the hall for half an hour? then like when we went back to class, the half blind cat was sitting on Ivy's back. then the teacher in and the cat was walking around in class. almost everyone paid attention to the cat instead of Biology. then like Miss Drina took the cat by its back and put it outside the class. so like it didnt bother us anymore until after Physics class Dexter went out to find the cat and bring it back in. supposedly we were having EST after Physics but Miss Irene took over. then she saw the cat and was actly scared so Simon brought the cat outside and she continued teaching. luckily it didnt come back to class today. studying with a cat in class is not very comfortable bahh. and today is the last day for Miss Veronica. gonna miss her alot esp the guys. we had 2 periods of her class before recess and during the 2nd period, the guys jst like crowded the teacher's table and kept talking to her and asking questions. when it was recess time, they wouldnt even let her out of the class. they went to block the back and front door and she was stuck in class for about 15 minutes like that. well, jst hope that the new teacher would be as fun as Mr Ardi and Miss Veronica =\

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


its the prize giving thingy for the curriculum thingy today. so like those uninvolved didnt go to school and i happen to be one of them. because of that i was uberly happy yesterday as i thought i could wake up later than normal school time. who knew, my mum asked me to bring my sister to school. and i woke up like 15 minutes later than my usual wake up time. goshh well, i was planning to stay up all night last night. in which i 95% succeeded. cause i was watching drama all night long until around 3am when i was waiting for the last episode to load, i lied on my bed. *less than 5 minutes later* zzZ... you guessed it right, i fell asleep. i cannot believe it. i actly fell asleep. all my hard work of staying up so late came to a waste. i actly wanted to sleep around midnight but then i bertahan. mana tahu it turned out this way. i slept for like 2 hours then i had to wake up again to bring my sister to school. omg.
well, its quite a boring day today. but then its better than going to school and get so sweaty and all bahh. haha so like i got bored after my parents went out, so i was like browsing through my comp looking at pictures and arranging them. then i came across the pictures taken at KK 2 months ago. i miss KK. i miss travelling. and time sure passes very fast. i mean, its already August now. in 4 days its gonna be September already :O
i also found some old pictures in my comp which i thought were already long gone. and also pictures taken this year. most of them are left with memories. not only that, im like listening to those songs that brings back many memories too. thinking back, i really do miss Form 1. its was like one of the best years ever in secondary school. that time we were all young and innocent. damn fun pls. many things happened when i was in Form 1. it was also the year i met him. btw, im gonna post up pictures taken in the previous years/months. a lil bit of memory to freshen up my mind.

2006 :

2007 :

2008 :

the above are some photos from each year. you know after uploading them then i realize that i dont have any pics from 2005. i guess the word "camera" wasnt used much back then. haha but still, memories. both good and bad, theyre still memories right? still cant believe that its already 2008. when i close my eyes and think about all thats happened, it feels like 2005 was only yesterday. *BIG SIGH* why cant we have like 50 hours in a day instead of 24? i know if thrs 50 hours, sure school hours would be pulled to at least 20 hours long and work will be at least 30 hours. but it'd be fun if we're spending time with the people we love.
writing all these reminds me of my childhood days. oh so stress-free. back then we didnt have so much homework and kids dont betray each other. life was easy. you know, if i was given a chance or a wish, i would definitely wanna turn back time and re-live those days again. well, thats like 110% impossible anyways. so, back to reality : i do not like my life now. my life is still messed up as ever and things seem to go wrong all the time now. goshh =\

Monday, August 25, 2008


ignore my post yesterday.
that was crap.
uhhs, why are things turning out so bad?
why is life so hard? *SIGH*
im starting to hate everything again. goshh

Sunday, August 24, 2008


so i did this survey early this morning. and the very first question goes like this - "who was the last person you gave up on". obviously i wrote down his name. bahhh, didnt know why i wrote his name but whatever. my point is that "he" was the last person i gave up on. which meant that he was the last person that i suka-ed. and because of that, do not simply go say that i like this person i like that person when i do not even like them. oh pls where the heck did you hear all these things from? who says i like so many guys before when the "he" i wrote in the bulletin was the last person i gave up on? FYI, i liked him in 2005. you see that? two zero zero five. three years back. which means that from 2005-2008 there was no other guy that i liked. other than my hubby darling Joe of course. HAHA. anyways, back to the main point, i remember once when someone asked me who i liked. then i said no one and who knows he go and ask all sorts of questions and what "i thought you like de ppl is from other school de?" or "eh you ever like *inserts name here* kan?" or "i know you like him lah. dont pretend. *gives that ugly looking smile*" or "you with him ha?" or anything that has to do with this. oh pls if you dont know anything, then shut up. look, im being nice by saying pls already so you should know what to do. *gives that face* blurghhh.

p/s: this isnt 100% true. i jst remembered about some other guy and some other stuffs like giving up on someone. blahh.

Bye Bye

was listening to Mariah Carey's Bye Bye. its a nice song indeed and i looked up the lyrics jst now. and its like so sad. try listening to the song and reading the lyrics at the same time. you can feel this sudden sadness that feels yr heart. it can really make you cry. like how i did jst now. listening to the song and reading the lyrics made think about IF one of the people i love left suddenly. how would i feel. would i be able to accept it. how can i continue living. blah blah and so on. heres the lyrics and the song.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye


Bye Bye.mp3 - Mariah Carey

**btw, i did not go church today. omg. ive been missing mass alot lately. gosh but i wanted to go bah this morning. who knew when i woke up, its already almost 8am and my parents are nowhere to be found -____________________-"


its been a long and tiring Friday and Saturday. didnt even have the time to rest. hmmm, lets start with Friday. went out with Ana, Mandy and Rui Ling[not sure how to spell the english version. always get mixed up with her sister's name]. met up at Parkson and i was the latest one that day. haha walked around Parkson abit then we went to Imperial about half an hour later? went up and down of Imperial many many times. went to Ah Seng[Mandy's cousin]'s store to look for clothes and CD's. in the end only Mandy and Rui Ling bought identical bajus. but got a lil tiny bit diff cause of the pattern. they left at 3pm then it was only me and Ana left. so we went browsing at some of the stores then went to Speedy. spent around half an hour or more in that place. was looking around for CD's. bought this Cinderella 2 in 1 disc for Vallamy. goshh after i bought that i was very broke. RM30 for one friggin disc man. dehhh. then we went KFC. ordered fries and jst sat there and talk. Ana went back around 4.30pm and mummy came around 10 minutes later. was supposed to go back but who knew she wanted to come down too. went up to the clothes stores and we bought a shirt each. hehe had dinner at Jing Wood. you should try out that place. the western food there is recommended. i love the Chicken Chop Oriental. ive been ordering that like since the first time i went there? haha. after dinner, we went to grandmama's house. said goodbye to auntie and her family. too bad Charlene wasnt there. wanted to say goodbye to her too. their flight back was early Saturday morning to KL. then tmrw, which is Monday, theyre going back to Texas. ahhh, time passes really fast. theyve been here for like more than a month already. and like what my aunt told my sister, the next time they come back, my sister would be in primary 4 or 5. *shes in primary 1 now.
then it was yesterday. was at home in the morning. still picking out what to wear for the Installation Dinner. Brendan and his family came over to see our car. his mum wanted to buy my Vitara bahh. gonna miss that car alot. haih then for lunch, we went to Imperial to eat KFC again. haha then went to pick mummy then come back home. got ready and we went to my cousin's house to watch the video of them in the Philippines. really ter-gan dong when watching some of the poor people there living in rubbish dumps. i mean like, right in the middle of the place you see a tiny house there. kasiann much. then suddenly my cousin's wife said wanna eat KFC. i was like "@@ that again?". then daddy, mummy, my cousin and i went to da pao. this time we went Parkson. wooooosh. they da pao-ed so much. around almost RM200 lerh. so i asked mummy to buy me one small packet of fries. mana tahu when she passed it to me, it was a diff version. haha then they sent me to Dynasty for the dinner. our program started at 5.30pm and the installation went uhhh okay i guess. then at 7pm the dinner started. well, the food came out around 7.30pm i think. or was it 8pm? hmmm. then like there were speeches and performances and ughh LUCKY DRAW. saw some unexpected people there like Gabriel, his friend Malvin, Kim Seng[not Lee] and even Ivan Ong was there. well he was performing larh. haha on the dinner ticket, it says that the program ends at 11pm. i was thinking that maybe before 11pm the whole thing will end. who knows everything ended at around 11.30+pm. the people kept on delaying the lucky draw bahh. it was already the final one. and the Grand Prize was this RM2000+ laptop. goshh we had to buy this special ticket for the draw and like i was really hoping to win bahh. Cikgu Sheila bought like 10 of those lucky draw coupons, which cost RM5 for one. aduh. there were alot of other small prizes and the Brunei Rotarians keep on winning them. even the 1st prize, which was a Nikon 7.1 megapixel Digital Camera, they won. *SIGH* then in the end, you know who won the Grand Prize? well, none other than Chua Ngee Kiat. omg. someone from my school lerh. i was thinking that if someone idk won it, then nvm larh. mana tahu its someone from the same school as me whos like studying in the same block as me too. his class is either next or next next to mine lerh. omg. i was really hoping to win that laptop. Sebastian was very nervous about it. he called Wen Wen around 11.10pm and he kept asking her about the prize. i guess he wanted that alot too ay. lols goshh even Cass got win you know? she got this Egyptian painting thingy. an antique lor. but still, no laptop. not even a camera. haihh wonder when my lucky day will come when i'll actly win sth good from a lucky draw. btw, here are some pictures taken. theres more pics but its not with me now. will upload when i receive em.

Friday :

nice bah right? :P

my ice blended chocolate + pearl

Saturday :

goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend. lols

the Egyptian painting that Cass won

the very cute tortoise i found in my cousin's living room

the KFC that i didnt get to eat

Saturday, August 23, 2008



and this is the birthday girl ^^
hope you enjoy yr 16th birthday today.
all the best to you and Kendrick
and stay happy always (:

Friday, August 22, 2008

new skin

im very satisfied with my layout right now.
i dont think i'd wanna change anymore.
unless i find a much better one.
plus, the girl's real pretty.
somehow i feel that she could jst turn me lesbian.
HAHAHA. ignore that ><

Thursday, August 21, 2008

i was tagged back

so ive been tagged back by 2 persons i tagged earlier on. theyre Chriss and Jesz and in my answers i'll put C and J as their initial kaes?

1. The person who last tag you is:
Melo and Mrs Kngz

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
C&J : we're friends.

3. Your five ten impression of him/her:
For C :
a) short.
b) really funny
c) ben ben de sumtimes
d) loves to laugh
e) always cheerful
f) a real good friend
g) older than me
h) loves Hello Kitty at the moment
i) loves pink also
j) almost everything she own are pink. omg.

For J :
a) we're around the same height
b) shes got big eyes
c) shes friendly
d) shes the i-dont-go-to-church-every-sunday-cause-im-sometimes-lazy kinda person :P
e) when she does go to church, shes kinda abit late.
f) shes got a car
g) she has problems changing her blog layout. haha
h) shes married to her hubbie Kngz
i) shes still abit shorter than me
j) shes a GIRL :O

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
C : being a good friend
J : thank me in her blog. at the "credit" part thr :]

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
C : what she wrote in the tag.
J : "joe gif u. i don wan liao" :D :D :D

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
C : try to love her as much as she loves me (:
J : torture her. cause she always wants my hubby

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
C : taller pls. haha
J : stop rampas-ing my hubby

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
C&J : say "i dont make enemies *walks to her* lets be friends"

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
C&J : unnecessary reasons

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
C&J : desired? pffffffffffft. go and give her a hug lor.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
you go see what i wrote in the above part.

okay. i stop here. thats all you wanna know right jesz? haha. and uhh heres yr reply Chriss.


the rain.
its getting heavier and heaver.
the thoughts.
theyre lingering in my head.
the pain.
it isnt going away.
im scared.


so i went for dinner last night. it was my neighbour's birthday. she invited my whole family to eat at Boulevard Restaurant. yeah, the one opposite Sesco. so uhhh, we reached the place around 6.10pm? the moment i walk in the door, i saw this pink paper stuck on a notice board. it was for us actly. its like giving us the direction to the VIP Room[as written on the paper]. when we walked up the stairs, there was another one in front of the stairs. goshh scared we cant find the way is it? haha. then like when we got in, only one room was available. the rest of the place was empty. there was this karaoke system there. obviously they wanna sing, like last year - they invited us to dinner also. for the same reason but diff place. then got karaoke also - and the table was big. there were like 15 chairs around it. at first i thought "woahh. who else coming wor. my family only 4 ppl and theirs only 5". who knows that when they came, the auntie said her sister and family are coming to join us. lols there were 6 ppl in their family. so like the table was very full. so squishy bahh. then they ordered the food like each plate is for 15 ppl to eat lor. and guess what? there was about 10 dishes? pfffffft. eat so much. then there were the fruits and the cake was big. omg. my stomach couldve exploded anytime. so much to eat. and the food, all look so expensive. haha but i think, the dinner cost like at least RM1000? my parents and the uncle and his daughters sang some songs lor. then we had to go back early cause daddy was very tired already. then we reached home at around 9.30pm like that. went to brush my teeth, get changed and jst sat in front of the computer watching dramas. lols actly wanna sleep but then so full bah and mummy missed her tv show so asked me to wake her up at 12.30am to watch the repeat. and so i did and she managed to watch finish everything. i went to sleep around 1.00am like that. wanted to blog last night bah but you know, i was very very lazy. haha

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


so ive decided to clean my drawer yesterday afternoon. it was really messy and filled with many unnecessary things. it took me about half an hour to cleaned it and vacuum my room as well. halfway through taking the things out of my drawer, i found this handmade heart. it was the one Mr. WuGui made for me last year and its still pretty. haha

and as ive promised yesterday, heres the video (:

Tuesday, August 19, 2008


i miss the Olympics.

i know its not over yet but like Swimming is already over. NO MORE MICHAEL PHELPS. and like ive said before, this time de Olympics, somehow i do feel ter-gan dong by it. i dont really watch the other sports bah. i wasnt much of an Olympic fan but Michael made me interested. hes the one that gives me the urge to watch it everyday. and now that Swimming is over, i dont think theres any other point for me to continue watching. all of a suddenly, it seems a lil tiny bit boring.
and the song, Bei Jing Huan Ying Ni, im like listening to it now and it like gives me this longing-ish feeling. haha lame i know. but still, time passes really very fast bah. i still remember that night i was so excited to watch the Opening Ceremony and now its almost the end of the Olympics. and i have to wait for another four more years to watch it again. and this time, its gonna be in London. sure not that nice anymore lor. i think the China Olympics this time was awesome bah :D
and uhh, its Tuesday already. school starting soon[although the holidays jst started]. nth to do larh. boring dao chin chin. omg. oh yea, today is 19th August 2008. exactly two months after darling Joe's birthday. in conjunction with that, im making a video jst for him. its supposed to be made on his birthday but i was kinda busy for so long. and since its the holidays, im gonna take time to make a video for him. im like 1/4 done liao. so i'll post it up later (:

btw, this is the video for Beijing Welcomes You / 北京歡迎妳

to those who i tagged, theres problem copying the survey thingy right? well, theres another way to copy it. uhh, you jst highlight everything, then press CTRL and C together. then when you paste, jst press CTRL and V. and tadaa ! youre done. lols

Monday, August 18, 2008


1. The person who last tag you is:
Miss Joan Yang.

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
we're friends.

3. Your five ten impression of him/her:
a) she looks like those smart people. but not until the nerd level. heheh
b) oooh, shes got braces !
c) one year older than me ay?
d) shes got good english
e) shes got a nice blog
f) looks friendly
g) cute
h) shes a GIRL :D
i) shes also a FEMALE.
j) one last thing. hmmm. i dont hardly know her but i think im gonna say this - shes HUMAN :O

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
linked me up in her blog. haha

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
ummm, nice layout. HAHAHA.

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
love her lor since she "become my lover". lols

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
nothing bah.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
say "i dont make enemies *walks to her* lets be friends"

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
unnecessary reasons

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
desired? pffffffffffft. go and give her a hug lor.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
you go see what i wrote in the above part.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:
they might be like "oh that Vivian's weird". or or "whats wrong with her? i heard from *inserts name here* that she blablabla ... etc". haha

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
idk. the fact that i am able to love myself so that i can love other people.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
MANY MANY THING LOR. for example, my hot temper.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
someone who doesnt fail.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
thank you for caring and liking me. i shall do the same too. and i do appreciate all that you guys have done.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
#1. Chriss
#2. Jesz
#3. Marelyn
#4. Ivy
#5. Grace
#6. Job
#7. Joanna
#8. Jacquelyn
#9. Natasha
#10. Michelle

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
i think hes single at the moment

19. Is no.9 a male or female?

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
lesbians? neahh.

22. What is no.2 studying about?
omg i kinda forgot. or did she never tell me before? hmmm.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
last night? haha.

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
hmmmm. can you like go ask her? xD

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
three brothers.

26. Will you woo no.3?
she wants to woo my Michael !

27. How about no.7?
shes taken already bah. i think.

28. Is no.4 single?

29. What is the surname of no.5?

30. What's the hobby of no.4?
as for now, it could be poking. haha

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
they dont know each other bahh

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
IBS College

33. Talk something casually about no.1:
ahh, shes kinda kiddish :P

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
as in having a better friend/relative relationship? haha

35. Where does no.9 live at?
Pujut. and thats all im gonna say.

36. What colour does no.4 like?
rainbow colors maybe? haha.

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
they dont know each other -______________-"

-There's No 38 and 39 -
ok lor.

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
dog? idk. haha

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
you think she is mah?

42. What is no. 10 doing now?
holiday-ing? haha.


woke up too early this morning. around 4am plus i think. online and listen to some songs. then i wanted to go back to sleep but then it was kinda late already so i didnt. my sister and i followed my parents out this morning. had breakfast then mummy went to the office. Vallamy went over to my cousin's house to play with my niece and i went to Parkson. reached there around 8.30am like that. uhhh, sorry again Tracy for being so late xD so we went into Coffee Bean and i ordered Belgian Chocolate. nice nice though the smell of mocha quite strong. lols then uhh, played one round of Uno and jst talk. got this middle aged ang mo there. woooosh, engdao lerh. haha took a picture of him but he noticed. like omg. paiseh pls.
Parkson opened around 10am and we went in. was looking for nail polish at Elianto but i didnt buy. only Tracy. she ate her brunch in KFC and i bought some fries. was eating halfway when Michelle came. after eating, we went up to McDonalds and eat again. lols this time only Michelle ordered but we ate some of her food also lor. she ordered the uhh Golden blablabla and they got included this limited Olympics glass. got Athletics, Swimming, Shooting, Volleyball and Archery. when it was our turn to order, only left the Swimming, Shooting and Archery. i wanted the Swimming one bah so Michelle ordered the thingy thingy so i could have the glass[thank you !]. actly i wanted to buy it but it costs like RM8+? while thinking about whether i should buy it, this couple at the next counter wanted my glass but i was like holding it tightly so they couldnt see. so in the end they didnt take any glass at all. do feel kinda bad but whatever larh. at least i got what i wanted. HAHA. im not always that mean okay?
talked talked talked at McD's and Tracy's gan jie, Sze Yun came along. then we went up to the arcade and played abit. Sze Yun left when we're about to watch the movie. ahh, about the movie, it was okay. Brendan Fraser is still hot as ever. and the guy who acted as his son was hot too. haha i dont quite remember what the first and second movie was about though but this one was quite okay. jst sayang not enough action in this movie. hehs it was about 2 hour long and after movie-ing, we walked up and down of Parkson. went to the toys section and the baby/toddler section also. spent about half an hour looking at toys and baby clothes. so cute larh some of em. haha then we saw alot of familiar faces. Blein was there too pakto-ing with his gf. what a cute couple :D
came home at around 5.40pm like that and now im here blogging. haha gonna go downstairs now and get ready for the last episode of They Kiss Again. the last episode was really saddening. cried alot watching it and i guess my shirt's gonna be wet again like the last time i watch that episode. haha. btw, i wanna watch Dont Mess With The Zohan. didnt know that the main actor was played by Adam Sandler. goshh and umm here are some pictures taken. although it aint much thats but yeah, i guess that practically wraps up today.

cute hor that Michelle with the lil girl's skirt :]

the Belgian Chocolate

im not what you think i am :P

the engdao ang mo

btw Chriss, the part in yr latest post where you wrote about friends there, well i think my situation is the total opposite of yrs. so you should really be thankful and youre very lucky indeed. and i cant deny but jealouslah i ~