goodbye 2009 and hello 2010

2 more hours and 2009 is over.
yeah, one year is gone just like that.
i could remember that i was sitting here blogging away at this time last year.
*check blog archives*
click here for the blog post. lol
so ive been thinking alot since just now.
*think think think*
everything that's happened this year,
every word ive said,
ive regretted oh so much.
but we cant turn back time,
and its no use thinking about this again.
i just hope that when i wake up tmr,
i'll be feeling fresh and start a new beginning.
i dont want all my problems and troubles coming into the new year.
i want it all to end at 11.59pm, 31/12/09 once and for all.
i want to leave my past behind and look + move forward.
i wanna have a brand new life.
so my conclusion for this year?
it wasnt amazing but it was worth remembering.
it was one of the worst years of my life but i did make it through alive.
and before i end this post,
i'd wanna wish everyone HAPPY "ang moh" NEW YEAR! ;D

spent the whole day out buying the things we need for our bbq this saturday.
went to Servay, Boulevard, CCK, Hot Cross Bun and CT Academics.
Ah Siew, Ah Ung, Ah Pan and Ah Wong followed too.
but first we went to school to return our textbooks.
all of a sudden, i kinda really miss school lor.
cant believe im not gonna step into that school wearing my uniform le.
five years, *snaps fingers* gone just like that.
lol so we went to CT Academics in the afternoon
and asked the lady lots of questions.
and the more i asked, the more im interested in _____.
too bad i wont be able to "chase" my dreams and study that lor.
me and that course totally no 缘分 i guess.
haih maybe in my next life bh T_T
and for nw, i think i'll jst concentrate on some simpler course
and stick with it for the rest of my life :O

after spending the whole afternoon at Imperial, Parkson and Boulevard with miss ivy,
im finally back home.
urghh im exhausted from driving from one place to another
searching for ___ and we didnt even succeed in any of it.
gosh nobody wants us T_T

stf really funny happened today.
HAR HAR HAR.
im not gonna talk about it though.
if u wanna know,
try ask me nicely and i might just tell you. wtf

anyways, i went to mummy's office after ____ happened.
spent the whole 2 hours and a half thr
sitting and talking and laughing.
cause its US Dollar's 4th last day working today.

oh and did i mention that i got two love letters today?
heck yeah, one was when i went to parkson
and the other one i got it from mummy's office.
aww, its two love letters from the 白马王子/白马公主
who go around the city everyday to check our cars for parking tickets. HAHA

anyways, im kinda excited for tmr.
im going ___ hunting with Ivy Wong.
wish us luck people :\

read japanese.

the other day when i went to my edit posts there
i saw one of my previous post having 19 comments.
i was shocked to see so much so i went to click.
and guess what i saw?
all the comments were in japanese
=_______________="
then just now when i went to check again,
2 more comments appeared and it became 21.
LOL wonder where did all these japanese people come from.
dropping random comments at the same post
all on different days.
really very weird :\

merry christmas

Blessed Christmas to everyone reading this blog.
too bad there's no snow in Malaysia but its okay,
as long as the Christmas spirit is here,
its good enough.
oh and happy birthday to Jesus Christ!
btw, i received an email from a friend few days ago
and it was talking about Christmas trees.
at the end of the message was the meaning of the 12 Days of Christmas
so here below is the whats written in the end of the email :)


From 1558 until 1829, Roman Catholics in England were not permitted to practice their faith openly. Someone during that era wrote this carol as a catechism song for young Catholics. It has two levels of meaning: the surface meaning plus a hidden meaning known only to members of their church. Each element in the carol has a code word for a religious reality which the children could remember.

-The partridge in a pear tree was Jesus Christ.

-Two turtle doves were the Old and New Testaments.

-Three French hens stood for faith, hope and love.

-The four calling birds were the four gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke & John.

-The five golden rings recalled the Torah or Law, the first five books of the Old Testament.

-The six geese a-laying stood for the six days of creation.

-Seven swans a-swimming represented the sevenfold gifts of the Holy Spirit--Prophesy, Serving, Teaching, Exhortation, Contribution, Leadership, and Mercy.

-The eight maids a-milking were the eight beatitudes.

-Nine ladies dancing were the nine fruits of the Holy Spirit--Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control.
-The ten lords a-leaping were the ten commandments.

-The eleven pipers piping stood for the eleven faithful disciples.

-The twelve drummers drumming symbolized the twelve points of belief in the Apostles' Creed.


awesome isnt it? ^^

im finally back from KK.
my conclusion is :
this vacation kinda sucked but i really did enjoy myself during dinner (22/12)

honestly speaking,
this is like one of the worst trips ive ever had.
not only did i not shop enough,
i had to worry all day and night
and i couldnt even relax abit.
i woke up so many million times in the middle of the night
as i was literally freezing, having body aches and almost got pushed down the bed.
during the day,
i had to pray to God for mercy and guidance.
really not what ive expected at all.

but on the other hand,
i'd pray hard everyday during the trip and i felt like im a little closer to God.
(not that ive becomed super holy or sth but still better than usual)
and also during 冬节 (Winter Festival?) i was really happy.
(although i was kinda troubled and worried too)
we had dinner at Aaron's grandma's house.
everyone was there(children, grandchildren, in-laws, everyone).
then we all gathered outside for dinner and it was awesome.
the feeling i had at that time was indescribable
and all i knew was when i closed my eyes,
it really felt like home.
a very 感动 moment suddenly.
haha and the 芋头扣肉 is awesomer than awesome.
it tastes just like the one my aunt used to cook but less sweet.
and and i simply love it.
seeing everybody eating and talking so happily,
it made me miss home(when grandma and grandpa were still around) oh so much.
somehow, i just really miss my childhood days.
back when everyone was still around and always gathering together.


anyways, its already over.
no need to think so much about it
except for the dinner part and 芋头扣肉 !
omg im like soooo in love with the 芋头扣肉 rite nw.
its like officially my favorite food
& i'll never get tired of eating it :D
HAHAHAHAHAHA ;)

Brittany Murphy passed away.

10 November 1977 - 20 December 2009

"Brittany Murphy died early this morning after she went into full cardiac arrest and could not be revived, multiple sources tell TMZ. She was 32. A 911 call was made at 8:00 AM from a home in Los Angeles that is listed as belonging to her husband, Simon Monjack, the Los Angeles City Fire Department tells TMZ."

lets send our condolences to the Murphy family for their loss.
rest in peace, Brittany.

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AAAAAAAAHHHH !!
JAY CHOU IS IN KL TODAY!
WTF WTF WTF WTF.
I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT IT LEH.
HOW COME I SUDDENLY REMEMBER? WTF
WHY AM I SO UNLUCKY?
LAST YEAR WHEN I WENT TO KK,
DARLING JOE WENT TO KL.
THIS YEAR WHEN IM GOING TO KK(AGAIN),
JAY CHOU GOES TO KL.

ish ish ish how come like that har?
really not fair lor.
why not they go KK?
or i go KL ah?
*BIG BIG BIG SIGH*

im off to Kota Kinabalu in about 8 hours.
i'll have to wake up by 5am and im still sitting here blogging.
why am i not sleeping yet?
3 reasons for you.
number one, im kinda excited about the trip.
number two, i need to find some of the places we went in the previous trip cause daddy's driving this time and we cant get any help like how we used to when we rode in taxi(s).
number three, daddy and mummy isnt feeling well and i have to pray for them.

so i have this happy and worried feeling right now.
gosh i really hope everything will be fine when we wake up in the morning.
ive been praying quite hard today so please please, let everything be okay.
just hakuna matata cause thats all i wish for, for this trip.

anyways, FISH/PORK NOODLE (a famous food from KK) here i come! :D
im gonna eat you in less than 10 hours.
woooo, im really looking forward to this trip lor
(except for the aeroplane part though).
i wanna escape from all my thoughts and reality
and land in dreamland for a few days.

the fish noodle :)

ps: refer to this post, which is my previous trip to KK.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LU YEE! :D

i think im getting crazier by the day.
omg i just dreamed about darling Joe.
woooo, i havent had a dream about him since last year.
in my dreams, i was smiling like a lunatic when i saw him.
lol my face went bright red and i just couldnt stop smiling.
in my previous dream i didnt manage to take pic with him
and guess what?
i failed again in this dream. wtf
but hor, i think dreaming about him is a good sign.
cause it shows that my love for him is still strong.
& i guess im falling in love all over again <3



ps: i was reading COLOR magazine yesterday afternoon and he was on the cover. i was really concentrating on looking at all his pics and i guess thats part of the reason why i dreamed of him. HAHA.

i was happy.
im much satisfied now.
thank you for listening to my prayers Lord.
but my troubles and worries do not end here.
thrs more to come next month and next next month.
hope everything will go smoothly
and nth bad happens.
*fingers crossed*
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i am lost.
im tired of everything.
sometimes, i really feel like giving up.
and i thought i was strong,
i thought i could face it
but i was wrong, so so wrong.
*SIGH*
i feel like im on the verge of breaking down.
dont ask me why.
you'll never understand.
no one does :(
i just want a simple life.
is that so much to ask?

im going to KK next monday.
am i happy? yes.
am i really happy? no.
*BIG FAT SIGH*
seriously, few months back
i was soooo looking forward to this trip.
i thought i could escape from all the troubles and stress
and leave everything in miri,
even if its only for a few days.
but i guess my dreams are already shattered.
so much have happened lately that i really dont know what to do anymore.
im not superwoman and i dont have super powers.
but i really hope that things'll turn out okay.
:((((

MY WHOLE HOUSE SMELLS LIKE PAINT!
urghh when will the smell go away? T_T
yesterday daddy painted the doors in our house
and the smell wont go away.
(u hear me, ONLY doors not the whole house)
wonder what will happened if daddy painted the whole house.
sure can die from the poisonous smell of paint. LOL

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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO LING TZEN!
:)

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i cant believe time passes soooooo fast.
everything happened in jst a blink of an eye.
starting today i wont have to wake up early for sch anymore.
no more wearing my uniform,
no more wearing my school shoes,
no more picking up my cousin and sending her to school,
no more setting my alarm to 5am ++,
no more (very rarely) going to school after 2nd period,
no more sometimes skipping last periodsgoing back early,
no more going outside of sch to buy bing tiao/lekor to eat in class,
no more eating wet buttered chicken rice at tanjung,
no more hanging at the corridor between classes,
no more going into other ppl's class and kacau2,
no more skipping 2 periods of maths on thursday by going to s3 and talk,
no more this and no more that.
gosh, ASS PEE AM is finally over
& im officially an ex student of St Joe.

Tae Yang - Wedding Dress

I AM SO ADDICTED TO WEDDING DRESS!

omg the piano part at the opening of the song is beautiful.
i fell in love with the opening the first time i heard it.
and the MV is like omg so sad la.
wooooots, i love love love this song :D

the The 10 Top-Earning Taiwanese Singers of 2009 is finally out.
and guess what? *grins*
yeaaaaah, Jay Chou does it again.
Taiwan's Heavenly Kin tops the list once again earning an estimated $554million this year.
now thats really alot of money.
even S.H.E. who's at #2 only earned $360million.
wooots, im giving 10 thumbs up for Jay :D

Jay with Zhi Ling

and also, darling Joe ranks #3 in The 5 Top-Earning Taiwanese Idol Drama Actors/Actresses of 2009.
but hor, he is estimated to earn $50.7million only lor.
compared to Jay Chou, Joe's earning is like 1/10 of his only. lol

Joe with Zhi Ling

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its cool to see two of my all-time favorite Taiwan guys collaborating with Zhi Ling.
Jay is acting with her in a movie,
whereas Joe danced with her in his very first MV.
but then, Zhi Ling is much closer to Joe lor.
theyre like best friends. :O
*having Taiwan's hottest lady as a best friend is totally hawt. LOL

World Aids Day 2009

World Aids Day 2009 theme : Universal Access and Human Rights

although everyone knows that Aids/HIV is a really bad thing,
we should still love and care for people who suffer from it.
and every year on 1st December,
WAD is held to raise awareness about Aids and HIV around the world.
if thrs any red ribbon at home,
dont forget to wear it for the rest of the day to show ur support.
:D

four days.
what did i do?
go parkson, imperial & boulevard.
go out in the morning & reach home by night.
go makan & have fun.
go watch tv & play computer.
apuu, die lah my biology tomorrow.
peeps, do pray that i do not fail this subjecct. :\

sorry for the lack of updates yeah.
been kinda busy with my exams lately.
IVE GOT 3 MORE PAPERS BEFORE IT IS FINALLY OVER!
wooooots, i seriously cannot wait until 8th Dec at 3.30pm
im gonna scream like a madwoman until the whole world can hear my voice.
LOL khua zhang much? of course NOT. :P

anyways, what color should i get next ah?
violet? blue? brown? grey? black?
should i stick to the same brand or change to the new one?
hmmmmmmm.

mass at indoor stadium

its that time of the year again.
the time where all Catholics gather at the Indoor Stadium for Mammoth Mass.
but this time, its extra special.
why? its cause of the HLI ASPAC held in Miri this year.
many priests from other countries joined
and also the nuns and speakers of the congress.

speaking of this thingy,
im actly kinda really mad lor.
i mean, the timing for all these(for me) is very wrong.
the congress is held when my finals have jst started.
so ive missed out on whole thing.
ive also missed out on spending more time with those people.
gosh, daddy was one of the drivers
and i couldve helped if i didnt have to sit for any exams.
i really 错过了 this once in a lifetime chance lor.
T_________T



ps: i miss them!

16th Human Life International(HLI) Asia Pacific Congress(ASPAC)

The 16th Human Life International(HLI) Asia Pacific Congress(ASPAC) is to be held in Miri this year from 19th-21st November 2009.
and the closing mass will be the usual Mammoth mass at indoor stadium on the 22nd.

"the objective of the congress is “bringing about a transformation of culture” from the prevailing trend in the modern society with regards to faith, life and family. the theme of the congress is Walk in the Light. HLI is an NGO promoting “Faith, Life and Family” and to defend the sanctity of life and family around the world according to the teachings of the Roman Catholic Church through prayer, service and education as a non-profit, educational apostolate, HLI takes a total approach to life issues from the moment of natural fertilization to the moment of natural death."
for more info about the congress, CLICK HERE.

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a group of more than 20 of them, i think, arrived last night.
and daddy was one of the transport personnel so he had to go and pick them up at the airport.
since i had nothing to do and wanted to see those people, i decided to tag along.
well, the group that we went pick were mostly from Philippines.
supposedly, they should be arriving at 9.50pm
but their flight was somehow delayed and the plane landed almost an hour later.
(BOO AIRASIA!) LOL
so everyone arrived and they all started greeting each other and talking and stuff.
Dr. Ligaya(she came here before, in July to give a talk at church and my sch) called us "beautiful people who sacrificed for them".
aww, how sweet of her :D
after all that, we had to send them to the home stay.
three sisters followed our car and on the way to the home stay,
they kept asking questions about our country and learned a few malay words too.
at the home stay, we helped them check in, take their luggages to their room
and when everything was done, it was already midnight.
within 15 minutes of reaching home, the electricity went off.
at first the light in my room started going on and off and on and off
and i thought the bulb was gonna explode or sth.
who knew, it suddenly went *pooof* and i was in total darkness.
but thank God the electricity came back at around 1am.

and today, sth awesome happened.
so me, Michelle, Tracy and Evelyn decided to go opposite CH thr to limteh.
Pascal, Hii, Dexter and Hisyam tagged along too.
yeah, 8 ppl in my car, and 6 of them is sitting behind.
so we went to Seng Seng Cafe since the noodle house wasnt opened yet.
at around 7.45am, Pascal's mum came and the boys went off.
about 10 minutes later we drove to the noodle house as it was already opened.
as i walked into the cafe, i saw the sisters and fathers having their breakfast there.
*cute Fr. Ronnie was there too! :P
it was great cause they remembered me and they even remember my name.
LOL the sister was like "hi bibian(pronounced bi-bi- ahn), selamat pagi".
haha they kept repeating the malay words that i taught them last night.
wooooots, i feel so proud. LMAO!
then then, here is the awesome part.
so i sat down with the girls and ordered our food.
then the sister came over to me and asked me if i prayed the Rosary and if im Catholic.
i told her yes and guess what? she gave me this little Rosary bracelet!
omg i was so shocked and speechless :O
she told me that its a present from them and asked the father to bless it and gave it to me.
like omg la, sooooooo 感动 pls T___________T
here is the picture that i took just now.
(it looks prettier if u see it with ur naked eyes)

to 5 Dalton 1 '09

a few more days/weeks and its over.
all that's left will be memories.
im gonna miss you guys :(

ps: i had a great time today
pps: we'll all still be friends even after high school rite?
ppps: i'll never forget any of you *sheds a tear
pppps: thanks for making this year an awesome year :D

Happy Birthday engdao :P
again, ur birthday falls on a Friday.
but no worries, thrs no such thing as bad luck rite?
haha all the best in everything you do.
& God bless!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOBBY :)

as ur mei,
im here to wish u happy 19th birthday.
have to be more matured liao lur.
haha remember to be serious about life
& do have fun when uve got the chance.
take care!
^^

do you know?

the weird guy with the binoculars is back.
this morning while in the living room i heard my dogs bark.
when i looked out, i saw half a head and a binocular. @@
i almost freaked out. lol
ive seen him once before, a few months back i think.
but then, it turns out that the man is one of the sesco people.
i remember seeing him for the first time,
he went around the neighborhood looking into people's houses.

oh and my room stinks!
idk but i think sth's wrong with the aircond.
dont know when the aircond man is coming
but for all i know, i'll be sleeping with only a stand fan tonight.
gosh, i hope the fugly smell would go away soon
cause its getting really hot in here :\


btw, im really really tired.
im tired of all this drama
and i think im gonna get sick very soon.
有时候，我觉得自己真的很没有用。
我什么都不会，我只会哭。
我该怎么办呢？

HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY!


member of famous Taiwan boy band Fahrenheit 飞轮海,
Calvin, also the tallest of the 4, was the 3rd member to be liked by me.
(wtf i sounded like im writing some essay or article LOL)
i remember hw much i liked him 2 years ago.
but shortly after this obsession, i changed to darling Joe.
and guess what? im still not over him after 2 years :D

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saw this cute gay couple at Boulevard the other day.
they were in the hypermarket and walked to err "Cindy" looking for hair clips.
awww, theyre so in love <3

LOL anyways, sth interesting happened this morning.
i was downstairs studying and watching tv.
well, i studied and rested and continued to study and rest again.
so while resting, i went to watch tv.
all of a sudden, my phone rang.
nobody called la, it was a text message.
my usual message tone goes like this -- >"Hi sweety, text message".
the funny thing is my phone kinda got jammed when receiving the message.
so from what i heard, my message tone sounded like "Hi sweety, text message (pause) bitch".
it was like soooooo omfg la.
=_______________________="


ps: im going to school tomorrow.
pps: i know i know, like, finally rite? ehehehehe

i have the sickest family ever.
theyre all wackos & theyre three in a trillion :O

about my previous post,
it was supposed to be a lifeless one
but suddenly Joe started appearing in my head/phone/everywhere,
and ive decided to make it into a not so dead post.

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anyways,
ive been thinking alot since yesterday.
yes, im in my emo mood again.
but well honestly speaking,
i really really miss the past.
everything was great.
back then, life wasnt as bad as it seemed.
if only i had a time machine,
if only i could turn back time,
if only i knew that things would turn out this way,
if only i had taken things more seriously,
if only i wasnt so stubborn,
if only i would think more than twice before saying/doing anything,
if only they were still here.
i want to go back to when i was a kid.
i miss the laughters,
i miss the tears,
life was much easier,
ahh, those were the years.

seriously, i dont like whats been happening lately.
so much have changed over the past decade.
im already 17 and turning 18 in three months.
where is the road im heading?
ive disappointed so many people,
ive even let myself down.
how could i ever be so selfish?
if i had jst one wish,
i'd wish to go back in time and start all over.
and maybe, things wouldnt be like how it is now.

urghh, this post is totally messed up.
but whatevs, im really tired already.
i want to give up.
i want to sleep and never wake up.
i want to disappear.

and before you say anything about me writing this post,
remember, you dont know how it feels to be me.
so please, dont say anything.
im jst sick of life and i need to let it out
since nobody bothers to listen/care.

well, at least im feeling abit better now.

:O

i somehow find no more reason for me to continue living.
i know i know, its an awful thought but its true lor.
idk la, life seems very meaningless to me right at this moment.
maybe its some mixed up feeling of mine
but uhh, i think the only thing that keeps me alive is this (see below)

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YES!
he is the reason im still here.
struggling hard to continue on with my life.

i bet the world would be a much better place if im not around.

ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
HOW DID U
LOL!!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
real name ar? or nick name ?
SO CUTE LARHHH!!!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
SO HE DIDNT LIE TO ME
OMG
hahahaha!! <33
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
haha
wei
dun make me high
;DD
his reli cute lar..
haha
omgggg
seee him once every two weeks only
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
T___________T
SAD
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
HAHA
OH M GEE LA
LOL!
ﾟ◕‿◕Melodyyy says:
reli cute!
now can't stop picturing those moments whr i keep bugging him LOL!!
him and his cute+blur face

now this is very roflmfao xD

정말 스트레스입니다 .
난 도망 가고 싶어,
정말 다 지겨워 .
누군가가 날 구할 수 있습니까?
난 더 이상 참을 수 없다고 생각 .
난 잠들려고 모든 걸 잊고 싶어요. :(

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

i still cannot forgive that fugly school guard for calling me "AUNTY".
whats worse, he called me that twice. grrrr ~
do i look THAT OLD?
ish ish ish, that man is blind!
next time, i'll wear my school uniform to show u that im still young.
=_____________________="

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OOOOHHHHHH EEEEEMMMMMMMM GGGGEEEEEEEEEEE !!


seriously i think i found his Facebook profile.
gosh, even i myself cant believe that he actually plays Facebook.
waaaah, imagine if he accepts my friend request
and starts talking to me(which is 110% impossible).
walao, i think i can straight away fly up to the moon eh.
omg omg omg i am feeling soooooo high rite nw.
and im like smiling non-stop at the moment.
good thing there's nobody near me nw or they'd think im insane. LOL
anyways, i never expected him to play Facebook eh.
wooooots, he even said "lately im addicted to Facebook". :D

周杰伦 & 袁咏琳 - 画沙

this song is amazing.
i meant Jay Chou's voice that is xD
he sounds reaaaaally good here man.
the moment i heard this song,
i was like "i miss his voice!". LOL
actly not bad lah this song.
jst that the Cindy girl sounds kinda err idk hw to say.
u listen to the song and u'll know what i mean.
oh btw, shes a newcomer and this is her very first song.
shes super lucky to have sung a duet with Jay Chou for her first song. ><




午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
wu hou de feng yao huang zhi ya dou luo le sheng xia
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
wo dui zhe chan ren zhen shuo hua zai dui ni qian gua
晚风轻敲着岸沙浪浪堆积起无暇
wan feng qing qiao zhao hai sha lang dui ji qi wu xia
我跟纯真载比傻爱上你放不下
wo gen chun zhen zai bi sha ai shang ni fang bu xia

这风景如画开满凤凰凤凰花
zhe feng jing ru hua (kai man feng huang feng huang hua)
院子里花撒浇灌着那种情话
yuan zi li hua sa (jiao guan zhao na zhong qing hua)
等最美的晚霞等故事长大
deng zui mei de wan xia deng gu shi zhang da

**用手中的流沙画一个你呀
yong shou zhong de liu sha hua yi ge ni ya
曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
ceng shuo guo de yong yuan wo men yi ding bu hui ca
我的青春开始在喧哗
wo de qing chun kai shi zai xuan hua
因为大声说爱你而沙哑
yin wei da sheng shuo ai ni er sha ya
用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
yong shou zhong liu sha qing miao zhao ni de lian jia
也答应说好的未来决不会重画
ye da ying shuo hao de wei lai jue bu hui zhong hua
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
xu guo de cheng nuo wo jiu bu hui zai qu na
因为我爱你呀
yin wei wo ai ni ya

将思念碾成花
jiang si nian ya cheng hua
有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
you ni de ji yi gan zao cheng ping zhong sha
像沙漏般想着你滴滴答答
xiang sha lou ban xiang zhao ni di di da da
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
ca mei mei de zhi jia he ni pao de cha
原来幸福可以这么优雅
yuan lai xing fu ke yi zhe me you ya

不管多大风沙路多分岔
bu lun duo da feng sha lu duo fen cha
我也一样找到你呀
wo ye yi yang zhao dao ni ya
管它风怎么刮管雨就怎么下
guan ta feng zen gua guan yu you zen xia
越痛我就越来越潇洒
yue tong wo jiu yue lai (yue xiao sa)
不摘不属于自己的花
bu zhai bu shu yu zi (ji de hua)
喔爱闪着泪光为你我可以当傻瓜
wo ai shan zhao lei guang wei ni wo ke yi dang sha gua
这风景如画开满凤凰凤凰花
zhe feng ru hua (kai man feng huang feng huang hua)
院子里花撒浇灌着那种情话
yuan zi li hua sa (jiao guan zhao na zhong qing hua)
等我们的通话等誓言落下
deng wo men de tong hua deng shi yan luo xia

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super delayed tag. lol

why do you chose this photo?
because it brings back memories. memories of the past that i miss so much and really wish to go back to.
(a little cheating cause i edited a few pics and make it into one)

when is the last time you ate Pizza?
last month i think. but that time i had to share one piece with my sister.

the last song you've listened to?
光良 - 右手边

what are you doing besides answering this tag?
listening to songs and doing some english exercises.

besides your own name, how do you like ppl to call you?
ahvian. or anything nice.

do you love anyone?
yeah, i love darling Joe <3

if you were given any superpowers, what would it be?
read people's mind? yeah, that'd be cool.

do you have a brother or sister? if so, what is their name?
yeaap, a younger sister. her name's Vallamy Jane :)

what is your biggest dream?
im sure ur gonna think that its ridiculous so im not gonna tell u XD

what mobile service are you currently using?
DiGi and Celcom Xpax.

are you still studying?
for now, yes. but not anymore in about a month's time :D

what is your ambition?
*SIGH* dont wanna talk about it.

what is the closest item near you that is blue?
my pencil and towel and pencil case and blanket and mini towel. lol

when is your birthday?
12 February :D

who is the last person to text you?
Merrick

what color pants are you wearing?
pink.

how much money do have in your wallet now?
RM21.16

pretend you’ve had 15 beers. describe what you would be doing right now?
in the toilet puking out the bitterness thats in my stomach.

do you talk to yourself?
yes. hehe

spell your name backwards.
eel naiviv.

dedicated especially to MElo :D

and ...
*drum rolls*

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HUJAN !!

LMAOOOOO XD




Hujan - Bila Aku Sudah Tiada

Alone.

MY LONELINESS

Alone I sleep,
And alone I wake,
Alone I dream,
And alone I ache,

Alone I live,
And alone I cry,
Alone I think,
And alone I'll die,

Alone I try,
And alone I fall,
Alone I fail,
And alone I crawl,

Alone I break,
And alone I sit,

Alone I was,
Alone I am,
And alone I'll always be.


- Michael Reynolds

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THE PATH OF DARKNESS

I'm running from the tears,
And I'm running from the cries.
I'm running from my friends,
And I'm running from my life.

Everyone I've hurt,
And everyone whose cared.
Everyone whose tried,
And everyone whose dared.

Everything I've done,
And every time I've tried.
Everything I've said,
And every time I've cried.

As I run into the dark,
As I run from the light.
Who will guide me through?
And who will make this right?

Why should I stop?
Why should I slow down?
When all that waits for me,
Is a lonely heart that's drowned.

So who am I?
What have I become?
But a stranger in the night,
A man who is on the run.

Who will care?
And who will try?
Who will understand?
And who will just walk by?

As the rain rolls in,
And every ones in bed,
I'm out on this road,
And I'm walking straight ahead.


- Michael Reynolds

can anybody tell me which part of the world do not have lizards?
other than the north and south pole that is.
cause if there is such place,
i'd wanna migrate there immediately.
seriously, i cannot stand lizards anymore.
they are ruining my life, continuously. :(

RON95 & RON97

now i know the difference.
between 95 and 97 that is.
last night, i went to refill the petrol.
i was thinking of finding for RON97
since ive been using RON95 for so long
and i kinda miss using the old petrol.
but i was kinda in a hurry
as i was almost late for church.
so i jst went to the nearest petrol station
and went to pump some oil.
but who knows, the moment i drove into the petrol station
i saw the word "RON97".
wooots, thank God it was available there.
gosh, ive been searching for it since last month.
and i heard that only CKS + Petronas beside Columbia Asia got?
the i one i went to was beside Poliklinik(is that hw u spell?) thr.

well, my main point is that RON97 is definitely much better.
when my right foot press on the accelarate thingy,
the car jst speeds up and in seconds,
it goes up to 60, 70, then 80km/h and so forth.
i remember when i was using RON95,
whenever i step on the accelerate thingy,
the engine will sure make a weird loud sound
and it'll take a much longer time to reach speed up.
but hor, both petrol masih very "makan minyak" lor.

dear you,

let me begin this post with I HATE YOU!
seriously i dont even know how and where to start.
but good thing im writing this post now.
if i were to write it 3 hours ago,
i would be cursing from the start until the end.
cause i really cant take it anymore.

so first of all, i am a human too.
do you know that?
i got feelings too you know?
i am just like you, can you not tell?
i know this is not entirely your fault
but cant you at least just be nice?
we dont see each other very often anyways.
you know, the last time we met was in October last year?
its already more than a year.
2 days ago was the first time i saw you this year.
call me crazy, but somehow i still count and remember the days we met.
i know its already been 4 long years
but somehow seeing you,
i still feel excited you know?
the other day seeing you smile at me,
eventhough itwasnt reallylike last time
but at least i was really glad.
but last night,
*sigh* what happened?
im disappointed.
i dont like you.
i hate you.
i dont ever wanna see you anymore.
i know you'll be much happier this way.
i'll even try to avoid you IF i do see you next time.
and you'll have one less person to stress about.

but just to let you know,
i cried again.
this morning,
just thinking about you makes me cry.
i thought that i was strong enough.
i thought that i wouldnt simply cry anymore
but i was wrong, very very wrong.
我还在为你流泪。。。

rambut baru.

I CUT MY HAIRRR!

i did actually decided to cut my hair before
but due to some reasons, i did not.
then yesterday, i decided to go and trim my hair.
so i went to the salon and the lady was like "i'll help cut ur split ends".
so i was like, "okay and remember to cut abit of my front hair too".
i left the cutting to her as i played with my phone
and 10 minutes later i looked up to see the mirror
& found almost half of my hair being chopped off!
T________________________________________T
OMG.
i was really shocked ahh.
gosh, she told me "uve got too much split ends and i cant cut it all at once".
wtf that means if she was careless,
she couldve cut my hair into a boy's hair. @@
and after that im gonna wear a wig until my hair grows long again
which is like forever since my hair grows super slow. *SIGH*
anyways, back to the topic. lol
so, it isnt really that bad though.
i mean, at least most of my split ends are gone
and my hair feels healthier now.
haha so i didnt say much and continued playing with my phone.
and then she came to the front.
she asked me hw short i want it to be
and i told her, jst below my nose.
guess what? she go and cut until above the nose.
apuuuuuuuu ~
really very short eh.
not to mention super fugly too.
aduh, then i jst told her to cut into fringe la.
lol what to do? it already looks like a retarted fringe anyways.
urghh, then my fringe ah macam not enough rambut like that.
feel that its abit too thin.
i told her to take more hair but she said no need.
apa ini? its my rambut, not yours eh =______="
but in the end, my hair didnt turn out that bad la.
my mum said i looked much younger
and my dad said i finally looked like 10 years ago.
LMAO!
well, here's a picture of my hair before and after.

BEFORE

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TA DAAH!

AFTER

what do u think?
before OR after?
which one nicer?
u know,
im not used to this hair yet.
hopefully i will, soon.

conclusion : I STILL MISS MY LONG HAIR! :'(

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i saw him.

my emotions are so mixed up rite nw.
i was really shocked to see him.
i mean, i did expect to see him there
(cause my friend told me she saw him thr watching the event)
but somehow i was still surprised.
i cannot believe that i actually saw him.
and he saw me too and shot his killer-1000-watt smile
(idk why i gave this name to his smile but whatevs, it still melts my heart lol)
maybe its cause i havent seen him in a while?
the last time i saw him was on 1st October 2008. LOL
but i think im totally over him already bah.
so no need to feel this way rite? *SIGH*

^^

pretty darling and me :)

met darling at Imperial jst nw :D
soooo long didnt see her liao.
really miss her alot lor.
hehe tmr she got hairshow oh.
its before the Star Beauty Search final.
if not mistaken, the hairshow starts at 5.30pm.
so to anyone who reads this,
do go and support her k?
^^

i am happy.
exams are finally over!
:D


but im sad too cause i'll be leaving my blog.
not permanently of course.
i'll jst be updating once in a blue moon. haha
final exams are coming real soon
and i gotta be busy preparing.
maybe i'll update like once a week or sth?
or if got anything interesting then i'll update.
till then, BYEBYE!

one more day,
jst one more day and its over.

but im feeling very lazy at the moment.
i do not have the will to study at all.
all i feel like doing is sleeeeeep.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHKIATZ :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WU CHUN & TAIWAN!






aaaah, the person and country above brings back memories of 2007.
i remembered hw i was never really into chinese songs.
maybe in form 1 and 2 i did listen to a little bit of jay chou,
but not more than that.
and before i even entered form 1,
chinese songs were never my type of songs.
i'd only listen to english songs and more english songs.
lol until when Fahrenheit, 飞轮海 started becoming famous.
if not mistaken, that time X Family had jst started airing
and Hana Kimi was the hottest drama at the moment.
for all i know, Fahrenheit was in the dramas(Calvin + Aaron not in Hana Kimi).
and that time Wu Chun had opened a 2nd branch of his gym, Fitness Zone in Kiulap.
and after some blah and blah(i dont really remember),
i finally found out that i was kinda not-blood related to Wu Chun.
and and here's the exiting part(for me that is. LOL),
its because of him that i became very interested in Taiwan stuffs.
yes, i was into dramas, and songs and even tv shows.
i remembered after PMR, i started watching Taiwan dramas
and in the 3 months holiday, i managed to watch more than 10 dramas.
that time, i remembered having this determination to watch all the dramas Fahrenheit have acted in.
eventhough i failed, i succeeded to watch the ever famous It Started With A Kiss, 恶作剧之吻。
oh and that was when i came to know about darling Joe <3
since then, i never took my eyes off him.
yeap yeap, i was superly addicted to him
and im proud to say that i still am :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
CRAZY? I KNOW :P
well i guess part of the reason i wanted to write this post
is jst to show hw i came to love my darling Joe sooooo much. ^^
and one thing, ive been loving him for exactly 2 years le.
hehehehehe ;)

:)

DADDY, 生日快乐!
祝你天天快乐。
记得妈咪，我，和妹妹都很爱你。
^^

i hate smokers!

today very soi pls.
after exam, i went to pick my mummy from work.
on the way there(reach somewhere near Dr. Aziz),
some very inconsiderate pig threw a cigarette down from the shophouse.
gosh, the cigarette was still burning and it fell right on my car.
it dropped on the wiper there
and since i couldnt stop in the middle of the road,
i drove all the way to mummy's office there to take it out.
but who knows that before i even arrived,
the cigarette already fall into the engine there
and my whole car was filled with the smell of cigarettes.
imagine if i hadnt taken the cigarette out,
then suddenly the weather became very hot
and the engine also lots of hot air
and suddenly *boom* my car explodes.
omg thank God that did not happen
cause mummy was smart enough
to have that thought and remove the friggen cigarette.
but seriously if i ever found out who that pig is,
he/she is sooooooo gonna get it.
(& if my car did explode, im gonna haunt that pig every single day/night of his/her life)
*curses while typing*
and and got 2 tiny parts of the rubber part(i think) was abit burnt.
and the facebook luck thingy still say that im 100% lucky today.
pigu laaaaah!

BTW, THE PICTURE BELOW MAY BE DISTURBING FOR MOST OF YOU GUYS. BUT IF UR BRAVE ENOUGH, DO SCROLL DOWN.(EVEN I MYSELF DONT REALLY DARE TO LOOK AT THE PICTURE)

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PS: THIS IS FOR ALL THE INCONSIDERATE SMOKERS OUT THERE!
PPS: TO THOSE WELL-MANNERED SMOKERS, I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST YOU :)

selamat hari jadi!

happy birthday Jesz :)
uve finally reached a new turn in life
but thats okay cause it doesnt mean ur old.
it jst means that ur more matured
& there are more responsibilities to be responsible of.
no worries, im sure there'll be tons and tons of fun for u too.
hahahahaha. :P

still, all the best in everything yeah.
take care and God bless.


ps: u look like a younger girl version of 彭于晏 in the pic above. hehe
pps: i didnt know it was u until i saw it in ur facebook. haha
ppps: and again, do have a wonderful birthday this year ^^

finally,
its english tomorrow!
idk why am i so excited though.
i mean, english is actly kinda hard la
hard to score that is. lols
and i heard that starting this year,
there will be 3 types of A's in SPM
err, A+, A1 and A2?
if so, then i'll be aiming A+ for my english.
but still, not nice la like that. haha

anyways, we're using conference room for exam today.
yeah, starting today until next Tuesday that is.
wooot, and its 2 classes combine.
nw is that cool or is that cool? LOL


ps: wish me luck on my english tmr k? :D

exam starts today.
omg physics first day again.
and second day is biology O_O
seriously, i dont have mood to study lor.
only feel like studying for english. gosh

i was kissed by a mosquito on my lips yesterday.
-________________-"

how i wish to have my own Dibo
so i can wish for anything i want, anytime. :(

ive been having sushi for 3 days straight last weekend.
starting from Thurs, i went to Sushi King(blogged about it already)
then Friday i went out with some friends and went to Sushi King again.
and on Saturday, *drum rolls loudly*
i went to EXCAPADE!
after sooooo long, i finally had the chance to go there.
like omg, its been 2 months?
i seriously miss the food there.
and seriously, its like 10 times better than SK.
but that time i wasnt very hungry so didnt order much.
BUT HOR, i got order my favorite Salmon Sashimi lor
and its more than enough le :)

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idk whats been happening to me lately.
ive been having crazy mood swings
and even the tiniest thing can piss me off.
not only that, going to school also no mood.
see the same faces everyday also very sien.
day by day, i become lazier and lazier
and all i want to do is sleeeep.
become sleeping beauty also can
so i can sleep for 100 years
*thats written in books. is it true? cause in the cartoon she only sleep for less than a day. lol
and i wont be having any "fan nao" when im sleeping.
*sigh* im very tired of everything. :(

big bowl challenge.

its been two days since the rally.
*SIGH* i really miss it lor.
i miss all the singing and laughing.
i miss leaving behind all my hurt and attend the rally with a happy heart.
i miss being who i was in that three days.

i think im starting to become the usual me again.
yes, that means im back to thinking alot
and feeling very down(on the inside) again.
gosh, when will these feelings ever go away?
eventhough i do feel that im much happier now,
part of me will always be the same i guess.

anyways, i went to Sushi King for lunch today.
while taking orders,
i noticed a leaflet thingy on the table.
i took it and saw that its the eating challenge.
the one where they serve you a huge bowl of either udon or soba
then you gotta finish it within 10 minutes so its totally FOC.
BUT if you dont, then you gotta pay RM38.80 for it.
so yeah, after thinking and thinking and thinking
i decided to order it and give it a try
since the promotion ends on 30th Sept and its cool to try it bah rite? :P
so when my super huge bowl of udon arrived,
the waitress took out a bell and a big timer.
the moment she pressed start,
i had to hurriedly push everything in the bowl down my throat.
boy, was it hard cause the soup was really hot(hot as in panas) and its very sweet too.
halfway through, i almost puked cause the udon was very "mian"
and the soup was starting to taste disgustingly sweet and a little sour O__O
and right when i was about to finish half of the udon,
daddy went to stopped the timer thingy and said in Chinese,
"better dont play anymore lah. later u get sick ah and it tastes very geli lah".
that time, there was only 3 minutes left
and there is no way i could finish it up in jst 3 minutes.
there was so much udon left and i had to finish all the soup too eh.
gosh, i think hor, i wont be eating udon anytime soon lor.
im getting sick because of it. :\

this is before i started eating.

daddy took away some of the remaining udon liao so left quite little. lol

ps: so far only 2 dudes managed to pass this challenge.

Set Free.

its a day after Fr Stan's Youth Rally.
& im missing it sooooooo much right now.
u know, the past 3 days have been friggen awesome :D

so the Rally started on Sunday and ended yesterday.
had lots and lots of fun in these 3 days.
thank God i decided to go this year ah.
if not, sure my Raya holidays will be super boring.
i saw many2 familiar faces there too.
guess this rally was a success.
if not mistaken, more than 800 people attended the rally leh.
plus those from Limbang and Bintulu that is.
is it cool or is it very cool? haha
and this time, there was a healing service on the 2nd night.
during that night, it really got me thinking(and crying) alot
and its that moment that i could actually let go of the burdens and sadness
and sing and cry my heart out.
there was this Limbang girl who got possessed also(i think)
and started to growl at everyone and throw chairs.
then another girl from idk where was so full of the HS that she kept on dancing.
there was also mass from the first until the last day of the rally.
and the concert was really good too.
not forgetting about his talks as well, ahh those were the best.
from his talk about us being unique to chastity to being set free.
there were quite alot of questions asked too.
and most of the questions were plain funny.
one of the funniest question asked was "can married couples have sex once a month?"
and also "is it a sin to spurt semen after waking up from a nightmare?"
hahahahahahaa it was really funny pls.
even Father was laughing his "Bible" off. LOL

honestly, i have been thinking ALOT about the rally since it ended.
i miss the talks, the singing, laughing, the father and practically everything.
and this year was way more awesome-r than last year.
part of the reason was because i got to SHAKE HANDS WITH FR STAN.
*screams like a mad die-hard fan of the father*
and i also shook hands with my so called "son".
hahaha he even mentioned my name leh.
that time i almost flew up to the sky
and no, im not exaggerating at all. lol
not much pictures were taken though
cause i was focusing on the rally too much to take pics :P



ps: I MISS FR STAN!
pps: i miss the rally + concert.
ppps: any kind human would like to sponsor Fr Stan to come again next year?
pppps: i miss my son too ;)

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왜 이런 일이 생긴거야?
난 정말 그것에 대해 흥분.
그럼 행복을 바라고 있었,
하지만 난 여전히 내려 느낍니다.
난 내 눈을 감고 소원을 그리고 잊지 다.

ANYWAYS.
on the brighter side,
guess what date is it today?
yeaaaaaaap!
its 20th of September 2009
and that makes my current blog post's title. :D
cool eh?

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i cant wait to see Fr Stan again tomorrow.
gonna be super excited about it :D

my DiGi number is officially 5 years old today.
time passes really fast hor?
i mean like, its already been so long
since i started using this number.
i remember buying this number for more than RM30
and that time it was already promotion price.
lol and i'll continue to use this number until forever :D