thirstday

as much as i love thursdays, today didn't really go that well. firstly, accounting midterm is on saturday and i only know how to do the cash budget thingy. well, i'm sort of okay with the pv and cost of capital but still, i'm very blur with the first two and a half chapters(half of chapter three)! secondly, the workshop tomorrow morning has been changed to tomorrow afternoon at 2.30pm. and my tutor didn't even inform us. wtheck?! no notices, no emails, no nothing. if i didn't see her at the cafe just now, then i would never know that the time and place of the workshop have been changed. thirdly, i found out that the b law exam is on tuesday instead of friday next week. and it's from 6pm all the way until 8pm! so if i didn't meet my tutor at the cafe during lunch, i wouldn't have known that the workshop have changed time and venue and i won't be attending it which will result in me not knowing the exact date of the exam which will eventually cause me to miss the exam and thus failing this unit! lol i know what you're gonna say. "think too much" right? but hey, i'm just having contingency plans. who knows bah what might just happen. rofl and lastly, i almost fell asleep in management tutorial! idk why but i was really tired. when the kids were in front presenting the case study and also when we were watching videos that the tutor showed us, i was literally on the way to dreamland already. HAIH but on the contrary, at least i don't have to drive today. thank God chii how lives quite near to me. honestly, i think i would've fallen asleep while going back home if i were to be driving today. lol

early morning rain.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It’s not just a river in Egypt, it’s a freakin’ ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

- Grey's Anatomy

last day of march!

it's thursday again and i love thursdays! why? cause it's management day and that's the only unit i have for the day. no other annoying units that make me go so blur and sleepy. frankly speaking, i'm not an accounting person, i don't get bis and b law is just too complicated. HAIH i need help wei! i don't wanna fail any units. ;(

and did you all realize that TOMORROW IS APRIL? wtf time is going by so fast that even a G6 won't be able to catch up with it. seriously, two and a half more months and the semester is gonna end. i don't want it to end so fast! if it's ever possible, id love to have like 30 hours a day. see, this i'm asking for too much. just asking for an addition 6 hours each day. lol but still, just like last semester, the days and weeks are going so fast. it feels just like yesterday when i was still in sem two. i can remember attending the lectures and tutorials. ahhh, i miss my foundation life! to all the degree students out there, do you miss it too?

be excited for every tomorrow.

wed.

i told myself that i wanted to blog on monday but heh, i did not. been so busy that i've forgotten about so many things that i should've done. lol my accounting midterm is this saturday and here i am, slacking in front of my lappy. and guess what? if everything's gonna go as planned, i'll be catching a movie after my morning class today. fyi, afternoon class is cancelled and it'll be held on friday as a workshop combining with another idk how many classes. HAIH really no hope. and i still have assignments to rush and another two exams coming up. one is next friday and another one is idk when. :/ i seriously can't wait until free week! i wanna relax and enjoyyyyyy. wtf

i want these pair of shoes!

don't you think they look absolutely lovely? i'd be really glad to own a pair of these. :D

just keep looking.

We're all looking for answers in medicine, in life, in everything. Sometimes the answers we’re looking for have been hiding just below the surface. Other times we find answers when we didn’t even realize we were asking the question. Sometimes the answers can catch us completely by surprise. And sometimes, even when we find the answer we’ve been looking for we’re still left with a whole hell of a lot of questions.

- Grey's Anatomy

this never fail to scare the sh*t outta me :/

You may be inspired by this message and perhaps inspire others to change.


Nationality: Portuguese
Born: 3-28-1907, Aljustrel , Portugal
Died: 2-13-2005 (aged 97), Convent of Carmelitas, Coimbra, Portugal



LUCIA REVEALS THE THIRD SECRET OF FATIMA
Regardless of whatever creed or religion, it is better to be prepared and be in good terms with GOD who created us for we never know when we will be leaving this world.

LAST SECRET OF FATIMA
The Church has given permission to reveal to the people the last part of the message. The Blessed Virgin appeared to three children in Fatima, Portugal in 1917; this is a proven fact; one of these children was Lucia, (died 2-13-05).

She was a cloistered nun, and lived in a monastery in Portugal. Lucia disclosed the message for the first time to Pope Pius Xll who, after reading, sealed it and stored it away without making it public. Later Pope John XXIII read it and, in the same manner as his predecessor, he kept it out of the public eye because he knew that once revealed, it would bring desperation and panic to mankind.

But now the time has come, and permission was granted by Pope John Paul II to reveal it to the children of God, not to create panic, but to make God's people aware of this important message and to be prepared.

The Virgin told Lucia:

“Go, my child, and tell the world what will come to pass during the 1950's - 2000's.

Men are not practising the Commandments that God has given us.

Evil is governing the world and is harvesting hate and resentment all over.

Men will fabricate mortal weapons that will destroy the world in minutes where half of the human race will be destroyed.
The war will begin against Rome, and there will be conflicts amongst religious orders.
God will allow all natural phenomena like smoke, hail, cold, water, fire, floods, earthquakes, winds and inclement weather to slowly batter the planet.
These happenings will come to pass before the year 2012. For those who don't/won't believe this is the time.


Your beloved mother told you those lacking charity towards others, in words & deeds and those who do not love their neighbour like my beloved Son has loved you
all cannot survive! They will wish to have died.
God will punish severely those who do not believe in him, those who despise him and those who did not have time for him.

I call upon all of you to come to my son Jesus Christ.
God will help the world, but all of those who do not show fidelity and loyalty will be destroyed.”

Father Agustin, who lives in Fatima , said that Pope Paul VI gave him permission to visit Sister Lucia, a cloistered nun (she did not leave the monastery nor was allowed to receive any visitors). Father Agustin said that she received him greatly overwhelmed and told him:


“Father, Our Lady is very sad because nobody is interested in her prophecy of 1917, though the righteous are walking through a narrow path, the evil ones are walking through an ample road that is leading them straight to their destruction.

Believe me, Father, the punishment will come very soon.

Many souls will be lost and many nations will disappear from the earth.

But, in the middle of all these, if men reflect, pray and practice sincerity, good deeds, kindness and respect, the world can be saved.

However, if men persist with evil ways - greed, hatred, selfish acts, rivalry, and rift, the world will be lost forever.”


The time has come for all to pass on the message of our Blessed Lady to their families, friends, and to the entire world.
Continue praying, make penitence and sacrifices.

We are close to the last minute of the last day and the catastrophes are near.

Due to this, many that were far from the Church will return to the open arms of the Church of Jesus Christ.

The joining of the churches will result in one Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church - England, Russia, China, Jews, Buddhists, Muslims, Hindus, Protestants, etc.

All will return believing and worshipping God our Creator, in his beloved Son and in Blessed Mother Virgin Mary.

WHAT AWAITS US?
Everywhere there will be 'Peace Talks', but punishment will come.
A MAN IN A VERY IMPORTANT POSITION WILL BE ASSASSINATED AND THIS WILL PROVOKE THE WAR.
A POWERFUL ARMY WILL DOMINATE ALL THROUGH EUROPE AND THE NUCLEAR WAR WILL COMMENCE.
This war will destroy everything.

Darkness will fall over us for 72 hours (3 days) and the one third of humanity that survives this obscurity and sacrifice,

will commence to live a new era; they will be good people.

On a very cold night, 10 minutes before midnight, A GREAT QUAKE will
shake the earth for 8 hours. This will be the third signal that God Is, who governs the earth.
The righteous and those who propagate the faith and the message of Our Lady of Fatima is :
'ONE SHOULD NOT FEAR, DO NOT BE AFRAID'.

WHAT TO DO???

Bow your heads, kneel down and ask God for forgiveness.

Because, only what is good and is not under the power of evil will survive the catastrophe.
In order for you to prepare and remain alive and safe, I will give you the following signs:


ANGUISH..... ... AND IN A SHORT PERIOD THE EARTHQUAKE WILL COMMENCE... THE EARTH WILL SHAKE.....

The shake will be so violent that will move the earth 23 degrees and then it will return to its normal position.
Then, total and absolute darkness will cover the entire planet.
All the evil spirits will be mingling around and free, doing harm to all those souls that did not want to listen to this

message and those who did not want to repent.

To the faithful souls, remember to light the blessed candles, prepare a sacred altar with a crucifix in order to

communicate with GOD and implore for His infinite mercy.
All will be dark; and IN THE SKY A GREAT MYSTIC CROSS
will appear to remind us the price that his beloved Son had to pay for our redemption.

In the house the only thing that can give light will be the HOLY CANDLES.

Once lit, nothing will put them off until the three days of darkness are over.

Also, you should have holy water that should be sprinkled abundantly on windows and doors.

The Lord will protect the property of the chosen ones.


Kneel down before the powerful cross of my beloved Son,

pray the Rosary and after each Hail Mary you must pray the following:

'Oh God forgive us our sins, preserve us from the fires of hell, take all
souls to heaven, especially those who are in more need of thy mercy.
Blessed Virgin Mary, protect us, we love you, save us and save the world'.

Pray 5 Creeds and the Rosary which is the secret to my Immaculate Heart.

All those who believe in my words go and take the message to everyone:

DO NOT FEAR! FEAR NOTHING DURING THE LORD'S GREAT DAY.


Talk to all, now that there is time.

Those who keep quiet will be responsible for all those souls who will perish in ignorance.
All those who pray humbly the rosary will have the protection of heaven.
Those who are bound to die, I will help them die in peace, and they will be holy when they enter the other world.

I wish all my children to attend mass every first Friday and every first Saturday of each month;

to confess and receive Holy Communion; and in doing so, save the world from its TOTAL DESTRUCTION.

When the earth shakes no more, those who still do not believe in our Lord will perish in a horrible way.
The wind will bring gas and it will disperse it everywhere, then the sun will rise.


Maybe you will survive this catastrophe.
Do not forget that God's punishment is holy and
ONCE IT HAS STARTED YOU SHOULD NOT LOOK OUTSIDE, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE!!!!
GOD DOES NOT WANT ANY OF HIS GOOD CHILDREN TO SEE WHEN HE PUNISHES THE SINNERS.



All this encompasses with the writings of the Holy Scriptures.. ....
Read on the New Testament: Lucas 21- 5:121, 12:19, 20:20, 29:33

Letters of St Paul 3 - 8 - 14 Isaiah 40, 1:5:9.


You must understand that God allows all this to happen.

The Pope and Bishops are now awaiting another message that speaks about repentance and prayer.

Please remember that God's words are not a threat, but good news.


Please reproduce these pages and send them to all you know so we all can have the opportunity to repent and be saved.

We do not know if those receiving this message believe or not in GOD….

but just think that, if you are receiving this message it is for a good reason….

from God who created us and loves us so much.

Our Creator is giving us the chance to be saved, no matter what religion or creed we may be.

If you don't believe in this message, at least send it to others.

It costs you nothing.


To all those receiving it, they can have the opportunity to judge and decide for themselves.
Remember, we can avoid a great deal of evil if we practice the Commandments that Our Loving Father God gave us.

Just 10 simple ways, that if we all put into practice we can obtain God's pardon.

Amen.

fpbl XD

business law test tomorrow! i know it's only 40 mcq but it's worth 20% of the entire unit! the exam covers the first three chapters and it's already kinda confusing and complicated to me. good thing it's like only mcq and it's not a written exam. y'know, if i get good grades, for this, i don't have to be so stressed for the next two exams. like seriously. and next saturday will be my accounting midterm! even scarier than this unit pls. why? cause i suck in accounts and i don't wanna fail! nobody does, i know but still. HAIHHH :( oh Lord, i need Thee to guide me through all that i'm facing and about to face.

and did i mention about my individual and group assignments? wtf i'm only done with one and i still have another like three more to do? and there's also a short presentation thingy for management in three weeks time and i don't think i have time to prepare at all. hopefully everything will be done and i can be free during free week! it's a good thing that free week is kinda late this semester. unlike previous semesters, i gotta work my ass off for exams and assignments during the short breaks. but this sem, i only gotta worry about what to wear for my graduation the week after the break! ohhh, i'm so excited!

lol i'm going too far from my point. so anyways, exam tomorrow afternoon. wish me luck people! *fingers crossed

the human nature.

You take for granted what you have and you can’t take it with you when you die. There is never enough and you will always want more. No matter how much you learn, no matter how much you earn, you are still yourself and exactly as close to the edge as where you began. And all you can ever learn is what you already know. You will always want to know what the ending is, but you can’t because you’re dead. Dear God, I’m on my knees before you. the words are on their knees. Ready to go. All the words. All the words. The ending is words.

- Go Now by Richard Hell

scary, isn't it?

Strange and mysterious things, though, aren’t they - earthquakes? We take it for granted that the earth beneath our feet is solid and stationary. We even talk about people being ‘down to earth’ or having their feet firmly planted on the ground. But suddenly one day we see that it isn’t true. The earth, the boulders, that are supposed to be solid, all of a sudden turn as mushy as liquid.

- Haruki Murakami

happy birthday, june :D

the birthday girl and i :)

yeapp, this young lady in the picture above (left) turns 20 today! honestly speaking, getting to know her is one of the best thing that's happened to me last year. she's just the type of friend that i would love to have. although she can be quite "auntie" at times, but she's hardworking. at least she knows when to be serious and when not to. she's also quite very talkative. which is good cause sometimes when i don't have anything else to say, i can just listen to her talk all day. and boy, this girl can really complain too! sometimes, she can start talking from stepping into my car all the way until we've found a parking in campus and walking to class/cafe. no kidding. she can talk all day if there's nobody/nothing to stop her. HAHA. y'know, we've been classmates for two semesters now and it's our third one together this year. hopefully we'll be in the same class again next semester cause it'll be our last one together. why? reason being that we're both majoring in different things and well, there's just no connection between the units we'll be taking until final year. so yeah, we won't be classmates anymore after this year. but even so, i really really hope that we don't lose contact after next sem. things would definitely be really different without her around but i hope that we'll continue to be like how we are now, really good friends. :)

and before i end this post, i just wanna say: JUNE WONG, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. AKU CINTA KAMU! & ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR :) ♥

what is life?

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

- Mother Teresa

lemon!

Institute of Health Sciences, 819 N. L.L.C. Charles Street Baltimore, MD 1201.
This is the latest in medicine, effective for cancer!
Read carefully & you be the judge.

Lemon *(Citrus*) is a miraculous product to kill cancer cells. It is 10,000 more stronger than chemotherapy!

Why do we not know about that? Because there are laboratories interested in making a synthetic version that will bring them huge profits. You can now help a friend in need by letting him/her know that lemon juice is beneficial in preventing the disease. Its taste is pleasant and it does not produce the horrific effects of chemotherapy. How many people will die while this
closely guarded secret is kept, so as not to jeopardize the beneficial multimillionaires large corporations? As you know, the lemon tree is known for its varieties of lemons and limes. You can eat the fruit in different ways: you can eat the pulp, juice press, prepare drinks, sorbets, pastries, etc... It is credited with many virtues, but the most interesting is the effect it produces on cysts and tumors. This plant is a proven remedy against cancers of all types. Some say it is very useful in all variants of cancer. It is considered also as an anti microbial spectrum against bacterial infections and fungi, effective against internal parasites and worms, it regulates blood pressure which is too high and an antidepressant, combats stress and nervous disorders. The source of this information is fascinating: it comes from one of the largest drug manufacturers in the world, says that after more than 20 laboratory tests since 1970, the extracts revealed that: It destroys the malignant cells in 12 cancers, including colon, breast, prostate, lung and pancreas. The compounds of this tree showed 10,000 times better than the product Adriamycin, a drug normally used chemotherapeutic in the world, slowing the growth of cancer cells. And what is even more astonishing: this type of therapy with lemon extract only destroys malignant cancer cells and it does not affect healthy cells.

i got the above information from an email and i think that's great (if it's 100% true)! i'd drink lemon juice everyday because of that. HAHA. and when life gives you lemons, be sure to eat/drink it up! :DD

FRIDAY!

rebecca black's friday is playing in my head over and over again. and it's friday today! wtf

LOL actually the song's not bad. very cute but somehow, i'm just not digging her voice. after like, two days of listening to her song, i still can't get used to her voice yet. it just sounds weird. sounds like she's singing while pinching her nose y'know. no offense but yeah, that's how it sounds. but still, the song is still very cute. i like the song! :)

anyways, i'm like friggen done with my management assignment! due date's on monday and earlier on i found out that it was postponed to next wednesday. and the best part about that? i don't have to friggen care at all cause i'm already done with it! YEAY! I CAN SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT! :DD

already thursday!

seriously, i've been so busy and lazy lately that i don't even have time to update my blog. i don't wanna leave it un-updated though. maybe i'll login to post up some pictures or quotes. lol anyways, my assignment's due on monday and i gotta get it done before i go to campus tomorrow! hope that i can finish it like ASAP. and there's this thing about me is that whenever i've got assignments to rush, i start to become very sleepy and tend to sleep early. wtf i really really hate that habit and idk what to do about it. like the past few nights, i told myself it's either i don't sleep at night or i must wake up very early to complete it but i ended up sleeping more than usual. ughhh i have no future! :(

woebegone.

Have you ever in your life had hours, or days, or even weeks when all your ordinary activities provoked a rather agonizing discomfort, and when everything you usually consider important and worthwhile seemed silly and worthless? When you didn’t know what to do or where to turn? When you vaugely felt that somewhere, sometime, a desire transcending the sphere of earthly pleasure might be fulfilled, and you grew silent about everything around you the way a child brought up too strictly dares not express himself at all? When the spirit filled your heart with longing for an unknown something hovering everywhere you went, in transparent shapes that fled from closer scrutiny like an ephemeral dream? When you crept around with sad looks like a forlorn lover, and all the things you saw people doing in life’s gay, colorful tumult incited neither sorrow nor joy, as if you no longer belonged to this world?

- E.T.A Hoffmann, The Golden Pot

i'm back!

and i'm back from my little "camping" trip with 70 other church members. it was a tiring trip for me although i didn't really do anything. from that trip, the thing i remember the most is getting bitten by mosquitoes/sandflies/bugs/idk what they are. OMG it's like sooooo itchy right now, i can't stop scratching. wtf seriously, i don't think i'm a jungle person at all. i cannot go to places like the jungle or the beach too much or i'd get bitten. funny thing is, out of all the 70+ people that went, i think i was the only one complaining. everyone else didn't say anything at all. or maybe they weren't bitten? very lucky wei!

lol anyways, we reached the place at about 4pm yesterday afternoon. sad enough, it was a rainy weekend but then again, the barbecue still went on. i went to join them quite late so most of the food were gone. except for the chicken wings and nuggets. lol my aunt made very delicious satay and all i had for dinner were lots of satay and nuggets. *now that explains that huge pimple on my chin * :\ that night after eating, my cousin stayed at my hostel and we were talking about stuffs until like, 1am? after that i went back to my room to watch some drama and went to sleep. i actually decided to not sleep but since everyone was sleeping quite soundly and it was raining, i decided to sleep as well. lol but then, i woke up at like 5.30am? we had to get ready by 6.30am to go gather in the hall to pray, then later take a group photo and went back to have breakfast.

halfway through breakfast, they announced that there will be a jungle tracking trip to niah cave. of course, i said no. i went already last year and i told myself it was my first and last. it was so so tiring and i just felt very miserable. then again, i did regret a little for not going all the way until the end of the cave. heard that there's lots of things to see there. things like ancient drawings on the cave walls and stuff like that. lol maybe, just maybe i might go tracking again in the future. but it gotta be with lots of people so i can talk to them and forget the tiredness of it. XD

end of week two.

so i haven't blogged for the past two days. been kinda busy with assignments and stuff lately. HAIH and i'm like super tired too. idk why but these days, i keep feeling sleepy. is it because i didn't have enough sleep? or is it because i'm too stressed out? or just because i feel sleepy whenever there's work to do? lol either one, it doesn't change anything. i still have to do my assignments and the due date is not gonna be postponed. and you know what? i'll be out of town later today for a "camping" trip with 80+ other church members. will be back home on sunday and uhhh, i can't go online when i'm there! miserable much! especially when i've got an assignment to rush and i can't online. wtf i didn't wanna go on this trip actually but my mum was really hoping that i'd be going with them so yeah, i had no choice but to not keep her worried and say that i'll be going with them. hopefully this trip will be worth it. lol

oh and one thing. earthquake and tsunami hit japan yesterday afternoon! omg i was shocked. and my cousin, his wife and daughter went to japan last night. not sure what time their flight was though but i think that they've already reached japan maybe few hours ago. thank God that my mum informed me last night that the place my cousin, his wife and daughter went wasn't affected. y'know, all these disasters got me thinking. and my conclusion is that judgement day is coming very soon. think about it. natural disasters have been happening a lot in the past few years in places people least expected. this is all a sign from God. and yes, i'm very worried. i haven't repented at all. i'm still the sinner that i am. gosh let's just pray and hope that God will have mercy on us. :|

no strings attached.

boring boring day. had accounting tutorial in the morning and well, it was actually okay. had an indian tutor and no, it's not what you think. she doesn't have that much accent so 90% of what she said was still understandable. we did this swot thingy and that was it. our supposedly 1 1/2 hour tutorial became a 45 minute tutorial. i think i'll be attending more of her classes in the future. LOL then after her tutorial we went down town cause i needed to feed my car with petrol. ughhh money fly away just like that. sad. then after that we went to have bak kut teh! i think i ate too much. i was bloated all the way until i went to sleep. felt so uncomfortable you know? HAIH we came back to campus just in time to attend the business law seminar. and honestly, three hours is really long. unless the class i'm attending is like, ecs. and idk why but it was extra cold that afternoon. we were all literally freezing at the back for three hours. even during break time, annie and i had to go out to the car park and stand under the sun. XD and did i mention that i was friggen sleepy? my eyelids kept closing. lol very sleepy indeed. especially after eating so much. *makes me feel like a pig* but i'm still grateful to have alice as my lecturer. i mean, imagine if it were to be someone boring? i think i would've fallen asleep five minutes after class started. lol

after class, i went back home. just when i was turning into the street to my home, i saw daddy drive out from home. so i drove in and when i got down the car, i saw him reversing and calling me from the window. he was bringing my sister to see the doctor so i followed. after that we went to pick my mum and i told them i wanted to go boulevard to buy bag. which eventually i did. that silly bag cost me RM120 you know? i feel so poor now. anyways, after buying the things, we went back home and i went to create my blog. i mean, i already have a blog but this new one that i'm creating is for my bis 100 class. everyone was required to create a gmail account as well as a blog for that unit. i know, very -________-" right? the lecturer even mentioned that if we already have a blog, we can just give them our current blog address so we don't have to create a new one. and of course after hearing that, i decided to create another. i mean, why should i give her my current one right? so now, i got two blogs to maintain and i wonder how am i gonna do that. look at me. class started last monday and i've already been so busy. i don't update as often as i did last month and in january. there used to be a post everyday but now, it's like thrice a week? blehh. :\

when i was younger.

The best years of my life were probably my childhood years, specifically elementary school. To be so free, to be so happy. I was in my own little bubble back then. Everything was so beautiful and magical. Though as you get older, things become less beautiful and more dark. The world starts to look cruel in your eyes. These are the unfortunate effects of growing up. Things aren’t as innocent and magical as they once were.

- Megan Fox

bee.

so i just came back from my parents' room about 20 minutes ago and well, i feel sad. both my parents are already asleep and i was on the bed with my sister. she was talking to me and showing me some of the things she wrote/drew before. she kept those papers in an envelope under her pillow. so as she was showing me those things, i told her to be quick as i was tired already and seriously, i regret saying that. from the look of her face while talking to me, it suddenly hit me. my baby sister isn't gonna stay a baby forever. i know i may be busy with my own stuffs and everything, but that does not mean that i can neglect her all the time. i admit, i am very lazy to play with her sometimes but i never really thought anymore. i mean, she's gonna grow up one day. and when i finally have the time and energy to play with her, i doubt that she'll even have time for me anymore. i feel really really bad about it and well, i just really want to be a part of her childhood you know. in a good way that is. i've done many wrong things and i truly regret it now. and to be honest, if i were to be given another chance, i'd go back to when she was a baby and start over. i'd be the best sister anyone would ever ask for. but sad enough, i realize this ten years too late :(

growing up, i was always alone. i didn't have any other older sibling and the birth of my sister kinda made me really glad. but then, we're like nine years apart and there are barriers in between us you know. now that i'm in university, she's only in primary four. when she has school holidays, i need to study. and when it's time for my sem break, she'll be busy with school. i used to be able to see her either early in the morning and during lunch time cause i was in high school and the time and everything are the same as primary schools. but now, it's all so different. besides, i'm always so busy with my assignments and stuff, i sometimes come back in the evening. and really, i just hope that i can balance my time fairly. i have seriously bad time management and i need professional help! in addition to that, i'm extremely lazy and well, that's just really bad you know. HAIH

jay chouuuuuuuuuu!

feeling very very qwertyuiop[asdfghjkl;zxcvbnm,@#$%^&*()_ right now. jay chou was in kl the past two nights performing on stage as part of his tour. malaysia's his last stop for the tour i suppose. and well, i'm just really really really sad that i was not able to attend his concert. this is his second time here for his concert, i think. other times was just to promote his movie and stuff. so anyways, i've been kinda very emo about this thing since quite long ago and all i can say is that although the concert has already ended, i am still very sad. you have no idea how much i wanted to go and watch him perform live. a friend of a friend of mine went to watch him on friday (fyi he's mirian and he flew over to kl just watch him. i know, wtf right? :O), and honestly, he is one very lucky bitch. D:

*below is a video of him in kl on friday night T________T

jay's concert tonight!

went to campus today. spent most of the time at the new study area. it's like only the first week of class we have lots of things to do. lol but you know what? jay chou's concert is tonight! wtf i really really really wanna go wei! :( heard that my friend's friend is going to his concert tonight. yeah, fly to kl despite the fact that class has already started and will be spending so much just for a concert, he's still going to watch. he'll be watching jay chou singing live as well as hear his voice live too! HAIH really sad. jay chou ah, Y U NO come to miri?! just hopes that he'll be going to singapore end of the year cause i'll be there too! XD

i want a guy best friend!

I’m not looking to fall in love. I’m not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who’s not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?

degree!

hey guys, guess what? it's already march! wtf i know riteeeeeeee. why does time go by so fast? two months went by just like that and in ten months, 2012 is coming. oh gosh. y'know, one year ago today was the first day of foundation orientation. i still remember being clueless about everything and being the new student that i was, went around campus trying to figure everything out by myself. lol yeah, the effect of not attending orientation. XD but still, i managed to get everything into place by the uhh, second week of class? ahhhh, speaking of foundation really makes me miss my foundation life a lot. to be honest, until now, i still cannot believe that one year has already gone by. closing my eyes now, i could still remember that week in the first sem right before tuition free week and after. i was having midterms before tfw and rushing for my wrs essay the week after. i also remembered most of my presentations as well as the time during final exams. and also in second sem too. i remember going to class on the first day of school which was back in august and after a few blinks, the final exams were already over. :\ and now, here i am being a full time degree student. five years back, i couldn't even imagine myself being where i am today. seriously, this university thing came so sudden that i still feel shocked every once in a while. and in like three years from now, i'll be a fully degree graduate student on the hunt of a permanent job to feed myself for the next thirty years. *gulps

this is a combination of both semesters. i've posted this picture before but i just have this sudden flashback that made me miss my foundation year so much. :(