i'm back!

and i'm back from my little "camping" trip with 70 other church members. it was a tiring trip for me although i didn't really do anything. from that trip, the thing i remember the most is getting bitten by mosquitoes/sandflies/bugs/idk what they are. OMG it's like sooooo itchy right now, i can't stop scratching. wtf seriously, i don't think i'm a jungle person at all. i cannot go to places like the jungle or the beach too much or i'd get bitten. funny thing is, out of all the 70+ people that went, i think i was the only one complaining. everyone else didn't say anything at all. or maybe they weren't bitten? very lucky wei!

lol anyways, we reached the place at about 4pm yesterday afternoon. sad enough, it was a rainy weekend but then again, the barbecue still went on. i went to join them quite late so most of the food were gone. except for the chicken wings and nuggets. lol my aunt made very delicious satay and all i had for dinner were lots of satay and nuggets. *now that explains that huge pimple on my chin * :\ that night after eating, my cousin stayed at my hostel and we were talking about stuffs until like, 1am? after that i went back to my room to watch some drama and went to sleep. i actually decided to not sleep but since everyone was sleeping quite soundly and it was raining, i decided to sleep as well. lol but then, i woke up at like 5.30am? we had to get ready by 6.30am to go gather in the hall to pray, then later take a group photo and went back to have breakfast.

halfway through breakfast, they announced that there will be a jungle tracking trip to niah cave. of course, i said no. i went already last year and i told myself it was my first and last. it was so so tiring and i just felt very miserable. then again, i did regret a little for not going all the way until the end of the cave. heard that there's lots of things to see there. things like ancient drawings on the cave walls and stuff like that. lol maybe, just maybe i might go tracking again in the future. but it gotta be with lots of people so i can talk to them and forget the tiredness of it. XD

end of week two.

so i haven't blogged for the past two days. been kinda busy with assignments and stuff lately. HAIH and i'm like super tired too. idk why but these days, i keep feeling sleepy. is it because i didn't have enough sleep? or is it because i'm too stressed out? or just because i feel sleepy whenever there's work to do? lol either one, it doesn't change anything. i still have to do my assignments and the due date is not gonna be postponed. and you know what? i'll be out of town later today for a "camping" trip with 80+ other church members. will be back home on sunday and uhhh, i can't go online when i'm there! miserable much! especially when i've got an assignment to rush and i can't online. wtf i didn't wanna go on this trip actually but my mum was really hoping that i'd be going with them so yeah, i had no choice but to not keep her worried and say that i'll be going with them. hopefully this trip will be worth it. lol

oh and one thing. earthquake and tsunami hit japan yesterday afternoon! omg i was shocked. and my cousin, his wife and daughter went to japan last night. not sure what time their flight was though but i think that they've already reached japan maybe few hours ago. thank God that my mum informed me last night that the place my cousin, his wife and daughter went wasn't affected. y'know, all these disasters got me thinking. and my conclusion is that judgement day is coming very soon. think about it. natural disasters have been happening a lot in the past few years in places people least expected. this is all a sign from God. and yes, i'm very worried. i haven't repented at all. i'm still the sinner that i am. gosh let's just pray and hope that God will have mercy on us. :|

no strings attached.

boring boring day. had accounting tutorial in the morning and well, it was actually okay. had an indian tutor and no, it's not what you think. she doesn't have that much accent so 90% of what she said was still understandable. we did this swot thingy and that was it. our supposedly 1 1/2 hour tutorial became a 45 minute tutorial. i think i'll be attending more of her classes in the future. LOL then after her tutorial we went down town cause i needed to feed my car with petrol. ughhh money fly away just like that. sad. then after that we went to have bak kut teh! i think i ate too much. i was bloated all the way until i went to sleep. felt so uncomfortable you know? HAIH we came back to campus just in time to attend the business law seminar. and honestly, three hours is really long. unless the class i'm attending is like, ecs. and idk why but it was extra cold that afternoon. we were all literally freezing at the back for three hours. even during break time, annie and i had to go out to the car park and stand under the sun. XD and did i mention that i was friggen sleepy? my eyelids kept closing. lol very sleepy indeed. especially after eating so much. *makes me feel like a pig* but i'm still grateful to have alice as my lecturer. i mean, imagine if it were to be someone boring? i think i would've fallen asleep five minutes after class started. lol

after class, i went back home. just when i was turning into the street to my home, i saw daddy drive out from home. so i drove in and when i got down the car, i saw him reversing and calling me from the window. he was bringing my sister to see the doctor so i followed. after that we went to pick my mum and i told them i wanted to go boulevard to buy bag. which eventually i did. that silly bag cost me RM120 you know? i feel so poor now. anyways, after buying the things, we went back home and i went to create my blog. i mean, i already have a blog but this new one that i'm creating is for my bis 100 class. everyone was required to create a gmail account as well as a blog for that unit. i know, very -________-" right? the lecturer even mentioned that if we already have a blog, we can just give them our current blog address so we don't have to create a new one. and of course after hearing that, i decided to create another. i mean, why should i give her my current one right? so now, i got two blogs to maintain and i wonder how am i gonna do that. look at me. class started last monday and i've already been so busy. i don't update as often as i did last month and in january. there used to be a post everyday but now, it's like thrice a week? blehh. :\

when i was younger.

The best years of my life were probably my childhood years, specifically elementary school. To be so free, to be so happy. I was in my own little bubble back then. Everything was so beautiful and magical. Though as you get older, things become less beautiful and more dark. The world starts to look cruel in your eyes. These are the unfortunate effects of growing up. Things aren’t as innocent and magical as they once were.

- Megan Fox

bee.

so i just came back from my parents' room about 20 minutes ago and well, i feel sad. both my parents are already asleep and i was on the bed with my sister. she was talking to me and showing me some of the things she wrote/drew before. she kept those papers in an envelope under her pillow. so as she was showing me those things, i told her to be quick as i was tired already and seriously, i regret saying that. from the look of her face while talking to me, it suddenly hit me. my baby sister isn't gonna stay a baby forever. i know i may be busy with my own stuffs and everything, but that does not mean that i can neglect her all the time. i admit, i am very lazy to play with her sometimes but i never really thought anymore. i mean, she's gonna grow up one day. and when i finally have the time and energy to play with her, i doubt that she'll even have time for me anymore. i feel really really bad about it and well, i just really want to be a part of her childhood you know. in a good way that is. i've done many wrong things and i truly regret it now. and to be honest, if i were to be given another chance, i'd go back to when she was a baby and start over. i'd be the best sister anyone would ever ask for. but sad enough, i realize this ten years too late :(

growing up, i was always alone. i didn't have any other older sibling and the birth of my sister kinda made me really glad. but then, we're like nine years apart and there are barriers in between us you know. now that i'm in university, she's only in primary four. when she has school holidays, i need to study. and when it's time for my sem break, she'll be busy with school. i used to be able to see her either early in the morning and during lunch time cause i was in high school and the time and everything are the same as primary schools. but now, it's all so different. besides, i'm always so busy with my assignments and stuff, i sometimes come back in the evening. and really, i just hope that i can balance my time fairly. i have seriously bad time management and i need professional help! in addition to that, i'm extremely lazy and well, that's just really bad you know. HAIH

jay chouuuuuuuuuu!

feeling very very qwertyuiop[asdfghjkl;zxcvbnm,@#$%^&*()_ right now. jay chou was in kl the past two nights performing on stage as part of his tour. malaysia's his last stop for the tour i suppose. and well, i'm just really really really sad that i was not able to attend his concert. this is his second time here for his concert, i think. other times was just to promote his movie and stuff. so anyways, i've been kinda very emo about this thing since quite long ago and all i can say is that although the concert has already ended, i am still very sad. you have no idea how much i wanted to go and watch him perform live. a friend of a friend of mine went to watch him on friday (fyi he's mirian and he flew over to kl just watch him. i know, wtf right? :O), and honestly, he is one very lucky bitch. D:

*below is a video of him in kl on friday night T________T

jay's concert tonight!

went to campus today. spent most of the time at the new study area. it's like only the first week of class we have lots of things to do. lol but you know what? jay chou's concert is tonight! wtf i really really really wanna go wei! :( heard that my friend's friend is going to his concert tonight. yeah, fly to kl despite the fact that class has already started and will be spending so much just for a concert, he's still going to watch. he'll be watching jay chou singing live as well as hear his voice live too! HAIH really sad. jay chou ah, Y U NO come to miri?! just hopes that he'll be going to singapore end of the year cause i'll be there too! XD

i want a guy best friend!

I’m not looking to fall in love. I’m not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who’s not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?

degree!

hey guys, guess what? it's already march! wtf i know riteeeeeeee. why does time go by so fast? two months went by just like that and in ten months, 2012 is coming. oh gosh. y'know, one year ago today was the first day of foundation orientation. i still remember being clueless about everything and being the new student that i was, went around campus trying to figure everything out by myself. lol yeah, the effect of not attending orientation. XD but still, i managed to get everything into place by the uhh, second week of class? ahhhh, speaking of foundation really makes me miss my foundation life a lot. to be honest, until now, i still cannot believe that one year has already gone by. closing my eyes now, i could still remember that week in the first sem right before tuition free week and after. i was having midterms before tfw and rushing for my wrs essay the week after. i also remembered most of my presentations as well as the time during final exams. and also in second sem too. i remember going to class on the first day of school which was back in august and after a few blinks, the final exams were already over. :\ and now, here i am being a full time degree student. five years back, i couldn't even imagine myself being where i am today. seriously, this university thing came so sudden that i still feel shocked every once in a while. and in like three years from now, i'll be a fully degree graduate student on the hunt of a permanent job to feed myself for the next thirty years. *gulps

this is a combination of both semesters. i've posted this picture before but i just have this sudden flashback that made me miss my foundation year so much. :(

day one.

first day of class was alright. only one lecture on monday. isn't that just, great? but then, i went back home like six hours after lecture. why? cause there was just so many things to be done. went around campus with june cause she had some stuffs to settle. went up to the office to look for the lecturer like three times? when finally we've found the person that we needed to meet, she wasn't in. had to wait like an hour until she came back. but then the queue to meet her was really long. and since june found this friend, we kinda cut queue. XD and so after waiting for an hour and a half, we finally get to meet the hod lady. turns out, we couldn't change class. and like, all our trips of going to sob so many times and wasting almost two hours waiting for her was all useless. blehh. but i guess it's okay. one semester's gonna fly by very soon anyways. so yeah, kinda looking forward to tomorrow's class now. definitely not accounting lecture that is. i'm talking about bis tutorial. something like e-commerce. this should be fun :D