about my previous post,
it was supposed to be a lifeless one
but suddenly Joe started appearing in my head/phone/everywhere,
and ive decided to make it into a not so dead post.

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anyways,
ive been thinking alot since yesterday.
yes, im in my emo mood again.
but well honestly speaking,
i really really miss the past.
everything was great.
back then, life wasnt as bad as it seemed.
if only i had a time machine,
if only i could turn back time,
if only i knew that things would turn out this way,
if only i had taken things more seriously,
if only i wasnt so stubborn,
if only i would think more than twice before saying/doing anything,
if only they were still here.
i want to go back to when i was a kid.
i miss the laughters,
i miss the tears,
life was much easier,
ahh, those were the years.

seriously, i dont like whats been happening lately.
so much have changed over the past decade.
im already 17 and turning 18 in three months.
where is the road im heading?
ive disappointed so many people,
ive even let myself down.
how could i ever be so selfish?
if i had jst one wish,
i'd wish to go back in time and start all over.
and maybe, things wouldnt be like how it is now.

urghh, this post is totally messed up.
but whatevs, im really tired already.
i want to give up.
i want to sleep and never wake up.
i want to disappear.

and before you say anything about me writing this post,
remember, you dont know how it feels to be me.
so please, dont say anything.
im jst sick of life and i need to let it out
since nobody bothers to listen/care.

well, at least im feeling abit better now.