royal wedding!

so i watched part of the wedding on Youtube and all i can say that Kate is finally becoming a princess! it's every girl's dream come true to be one. they make a lovely couple and they just look so sweet during the wedding. awwww. :')

marriage.

y'know what? i dreamed about getting married right before i woke up. omgwtf somehow, someone did some matchmaking but i haven't even met the groom. and i was so nervous about it. then i wore this red strapless dress and was preparing to go to my grandma's house cause everyone's already there. and i kept telling my mum that i'm afraid. i mean, i'm only 19 and this is some matchmaking shit. i don't even know who the groom is. and i told her "what if he's not the type that i like? i'm really scared. can i just stop this whole thing?" but i forgot what she replied. i even thought about one of my classmates cause i remember having this conversation with him about me wanting to marry young and i was thinking that if i met him, i wonder what he'll say about it. HAHA. and i was late to go to my grandma's house cause i was doing everything so slowly just to delay the time. i didn't dare to leave the house. then my dad was talking about the wedding dinner at night. and i was thinking, how come my friends aren't invited? lol then idk what happened and we left the house. after that, i opened my eyes cause i wanted to pee. -________-"

that was a weird but funny dream. too bad i didn't get to see the groom before i woke up just now. XD ahh well, maybe i've been thinking about weddings and stuff a lot and lately so many young people are/have already gotten married. so i guess i was influenced by all this. lol

don't wait, go make it happen.

half of what we are;

Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold onto something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain.

- Henry Rollins

easter day!

have a blessed easter everyone! :) did you guys get to eat your easter eggs or chocolate easter bunnies? i did have an egg but i did not eat it cause my dad drew this face on it and i think that it's too cute to be eaten. :P

our own lessons;

belated good friday.

so it was Good Friday yesterday and i didn't manage to blog cause i slept before 7pm. i was thinking of taking a short nap and waking up an hour later to do my assignment but instead,i slept all the way until 3am. lol very -_________-" i know. i did the same thing on wednesday night but hey, at least i didn't have to go anywhere at that kinda time so i decided to do some research for my assignment. but y'know me, my research slowly became facebook and twitter and lots of other stuffs. then i got tired and went back to sleep at about 5.30am and woke up an hour later. sadness.

anyways, i went for station of the cross and also the afternoon mass yesterday. it was indeed a very sad day for me. in the morning during station of the cross, tears kept coming after wiping it away countless of times. the song they sang in church was just so saddening and just thinking about how much Jesus suffered for us really made me guilty. i'm such a huge sinner, yet He still loves me unconditionally. :'( HAIH

Holy Thursday

so i came back home at around 6.30pm yesterday. none of my parents were at home and i was guessing that they've gone to pick my sister up from tuition. and of course, if both of them left the house, it definitely means they're having dinner outside. and my assumption was right when my mum called about 20 minutes after i reached home. since my car was sent to the workshop, i had to follow my classmate's car to campus these few days. thank God for free week next week. lol anyways, i came back home feeling kinda very tired so i just went online, took a bath and went to sleep. yes, i slept before 7.30pm last night! initially, i was planning to take a nap and wake up later. but heh, i slept all the way until 3.15am this morning. lol and i woke up with a growling stomach! and the first thing to come to my mind was kueh chap! *drools* XD

oh and it's thursday today. yes, my favorite day of the week!:) also, it's very special today because it's Holy Thursday. gonna be attending mass at 7.30pm tonight. and y'know what? i can't believe that Lent is over but i haven't given up anything yet. other than the tv, i don't think i've done anything at all this Lent and i feel so bad. :( all i've been doing the past month was slacking, sleeping, online-ing, having fun, rushing for assignments and studying for exams. HAIH :( i need help!

every so often;

Sometimes we lie because it’s easier than telling the truth. Sometimes we lie because we need to forget. Sometimes we lie because you don’t want to tell her she looks fat in those jeans. Sometimes we lie because fantasy is better than reality. Sometimes we lie because it’s too painful to tell the truth. Sometimes we lie because we think it’s the truth. Sometimes we lie because it’s faster to do so. Sometimes we lie because you need to get out of something. Sometimes we lie because life can’t wait. Sometimes we lie because pain is not an option. Sometimes we lie because there is nothing better to do. Sometimes we lie because we need to turn attention away from ourselves. Sometimes we lie because we don’t know what else to do. Sometimes we lie because we don’t want to tell children there isn’t a Santa Claus. Sometimes we lie because it gives us a laugh. Sometimes we lie because sarcasm gives emphasis. Sometimes we lie because we need to prove a point. Sometimes we lie because everyone needs a break once in a while. Sometimes we lie because an alibi is needed. Sometimes we lie because a surprise is being planned. Sometimes we lie because we could lose money. Sometimes we lie because we want to keep a friend. Sometimes we lie because we are instructed to. Sometimes we lie because money is offered. Sometimes we lie because revenge is sweet. Sometimes we lie because we would like to hurt someone emotionally. Sometimes we lie because agreeing is easier than debating. Sometimes we lie because we are scared and rarely do we ever tell the truth.

nmmm.

so it's monday again. and yes, i have not been blogging for almost a week now. as you all know, i've been really really busy with my management assignment. yes, it was almost a last minute thing but hey, we were busy with other stuffs! so anyways, we finally got everything done by last night and managed to hand in the report before 10.30am this morning. really glad about that. and now that the assignment's done, i can slowly start on with the accounting assignment now. and speaking of accounting, the midterm result's out and guess what? i actually passed! hopefully there's no error in my marks as i do not want it to be deducted at all. lol now that the results for this is out, i'm only waiting for the b law exam results to be out too. hopefully we'll get to know the results by tomorrow. *fingers crossed

and this afternoon, i decided to go back early. as i didn't have to send anyone back, i drove slowly and it was raining so i was like thinking a lot y'know. it was only like 12.30pm when i reached the pujut 7 roundabout so i decided to take the long way back when i turned into the industrial area. so instead of turning left to the shell junction, i went down about half a kilometer and turned left again into the road the lead to my sister's school. and on the way turning into the junction in front of the school to my house, i met with an accident. some lady driving an old camry reversed her car and crashed into mine as i was behind her. unlucky much. D: good thing the damage wasn't that bad. not really in the mood to talk about it so yeah, not really a good day today. daddy's gonna send the car to the workshop tomorrow. hopefully it'll be pretty again once it's done. lol