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im at my cousin's house now. the internet line here is so good. unlike the one at home. goshh

well, tomorrow is the day.
its Father Stan Fortuna.
the 2-Day Youth Rally.
OMG i cant wait ! (:

psssh.

finally i can blog. omg. the bloody internet line has been fcuking bad. uhhhs;

so anyways, Brendan and his mum came to take away the car on Wednesday night. sad sad. im gonna miss that car alot. well, all of us do. its like such a pretty car bahh. then yesterday was ok lor. kena tahan-ed in the hall for half an hour? then like when we went back to class, the half blind cat was sitting on Ivy's back. then the teacher in and the cat was walking around in class. almost everyone paid attention to the cat instead of Biology. then like Miss Drina took the cat by its back and put it outside the class. so like it didnt bother us anymore until after Physics class Dexter went out to find the cat and bring it back in. supposedly we were having EST after Physics but Miss Irene took over. then she saw the cat and was actly scared so Simon brought the cat outside and she continued teaching. luckily it didnt come back to class today. studying with a cat in class is not very comfortable bahh. and today is the last day for Miss Veronica. gonna miss her alot esp the guys. we had 2 periods of her class before recess and during the 2nd period, the guys jst like crowded the teacher's table and kept talking to her and asking questions. when it was recess time, they wouldnt even let her out of the class. they went to block the back and front door and she was stuck in class for about 15 minutes like that. well, jst hope that the new teacher would be as fun as Mr Ardi and Miss Veronica =\

memories

its the prize giving thingy for the curriculum thingy today. so like those uninvolved didnt go to school and i happen to be one of them. because of that i was uberly happy yesterday as i thought i could wake up later than normal school time. who knew, my mum asked me to bring my sister to school. and i woke up like 15 minutes later than my usual wake up time. goshh well, i was planning to stay up all night last night. in which i 95% succeeded. cause i was watching drama all night long until around 3am when i was waiting for the last episode to load, i lied on my bed. *less than 5 minutes later* zzZ... you guessed it right, i fell asleep. i cannot believe it. i actly fell asleep. all my hard work of staying up so late came to a waste. i actly wanted to sleep around midnight but then i bertahan. mana tahu it turned out this way. i slept for like 2 hours then i had to wake up again to bring my sister to school. omg.
well, its quite a boring day today. but then its better than going to school and get so sweaty and all bahh. haha so like i got bored after my parents went out, so i was like browsing through my comp looking at pictures and arranging them. then i came across the pictures taken at KK 2 months ago. i miss KK. i miss travelling. and time sure passes very fast. i mean, its already August now. in 4 days its gonna be September already :O
i also found some old pictures in my comp which i thought were already long gone. and also pictures taken this year. most of them are left with memories. not only that, im like listening to those songs that brings back many memories too. thinking back, i really do miss Form 1. its was like one of the best years ever in secondary school. that time we were all young and innocent. damn fun pls. many things happened when i was in Form 1. it was also the year i met him. btw, im gonna post up pictures taken in the previous years/months. a lil bit of memory to freshen up my mind.


2006 :





2007 :












2008 :













the above are some photos from each year. you know after uploading them then i realize that i dont have any pics from 2005. i guess the word "camera" wasnt used much back then. haha but still, memories. both good and bad, theyre still memories right? still cant believe that its already 2008. when i close my eyes and think about all thats happened, it feels like 2005 was only yesterday. *BIG SIGH* why cant we have like 50 hours in a day instead of 24? i know if thrs 50 hours, sure school hours would be pulled to at least 20 hours long and work will be at least 30 hours. but it'd be fun if we're spending time with the people we love.
writing all these reminds me of my childhood days. oh so stress-free. back then we didnt have so much homework and kids dont betray each other. life was easy. you know, if i was given a chance or a wish, i would definitely wanna turn back time and re-live those days again. well, thats like 110% impossible anyways. so, back to reality : i do not like my life now. my life is still messed up as ever and things seem to go wrong all the time now. goshh =\

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ignore my post yesterday.
that was crap.
uhhs, why are things turning out so bad?
why is life so hard? *SIGH*
im starting to hate everything again. goshh

,

so i did this survey early this morning. and the very first question goes like this - "who was the last person you gave up on". obviously i wrote down his name. bahhh, didnt know why i wrote his name but whatever. my point is that "he" was the last person i gave up on. which meant that he was the last person that i suka-ed. and because of that, do not simply go say that i like this person i like that person when i do not even like them. oh pls where the heck did you hear all these things from? who says i like so many guys before when the "he" i wrote in the bulletin was the last person i gave up on? FYI, i liked him in 2005. you see that? two zero zero five. three years back. which means that from 2005-2008 there was no other guy that i liked. other than my hubby darling Joe of course. HAHA. anyways, back to the main point, i remember once when someone asked me who i liked. then i said no one and who knows he go and ask all sorts of questions and what "i thought you like de ppl is from other school de?" or "eh you ever like *inserts name here* kan?" or "i know you like him lah. dont pretend. *gives that ugly looking smile*" or "you with him ha?" or anything that has to do with this. oh pls if you dont know anything, then shut up. look, im being nice by saying pls already so you should know what to do. *gives that face* blurghhh.





p/s: this isnt 100% true. i jst remembered about some other guy and some other stuffs like giving up on someone. blahh.

Bye Bye

was listening to Mariah Carey's Bye Bye. its a nice song indeed and i looked up the lyrics jst now. and its like so sad. try listening to the song and reading the lyrics at the same time. you can feel this sudden sadness that feels yr heart. it can really make you cry. like how i did jst now. listening to the song and reading the lyrics made think about IF one of the people i love left suddenly. how would i feel. would i be able to accept it. how can i continue living. blah blah and so on. heres the lyrics and the song.


This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]








**btw, i did not go church today. omg. ive been missing mass alot lately. gosh but i wanted to go bah this morning. who knew when i woke up, its already almost 8am and my parents are nowhere to be found -____________________-"

weekend.

its been a long and tiring Friday and Saturday. didnt even have the time to rest. hmmm, lets start with Friday. went out with Ana, Mandy and Rui Ling[not sure how to spell the english version. always get mixed up with her sister's name]. met up at Parkson and i was the latest one that day. haha walked around Parkson abit then we went to Imperial about half an hour later? went up and down of Imperial many many times. went to Ah Seng[Mandy's cousin]'s store to look for clothes and CD's. in the end only Mandy and Rui Ling bought identical bajus. but got a lil tiny bit diff cause of the pattern. they left at 3pm then it was only me and Ana left. so we went browsing at some of the stores then went to Speedy. spent around half an hour or more in that place. was looking around for CD's. bought this Cinderella 2 in 1 disc for Vallamy. goshh after i bought that i was very broke. RM30 for one friggin disc man. dehhh. then we went KFC. ordered fries and jst sat there and talk. Ana went back around 4.30pm and mummy came around 10 minutes later. was supposed to go back but who knew she wanted to come down too. went up to the clothes stores and we bought a shirt each. hehe had dinner at Jing Wood. you should try out that place. the western food there is recommended. i love the Chicken Chop Oriental. ive been ordering that like since the first time i went there? haha. after dinner, we went to grandmama's house. said goodbye to auntie and her family. too bad Charlene wasnt there. wanted to say goodbye to her too. their flight back was early Saturday morning to KL. then tmrw, which is Monday, theyre going back to Texas. ahhh, time passes really fast. theyve been here for like more than a month already. and like what my aunt told my sister, the next time they come back, my sister would be in primary 4 or 5. *shes in primary 1 now.
then it was yesterday. was at home in the morning. still picking out what to wear for the Installation Dinner. Brendan and his family came over to see our car. his mum wanted to buy my Vitara bahh. gonna miss that car alot. haih then for lunch, we went to Imperial to eat KFC again. haha then went to pick mummy then come back home. got ready and we went to my cousin's house to watch the video of them in the Philippines. really ter-gan dong when watching some of the poor people there living in rubbish dumps. i mean like, right in the middle of the place you see a tiny house there. kasiann much. then suddenly my cousin's wife said wanna eat KFC. i was like "@@ that again?". then daddy, mummy, my cousin and i went to da pao. this time we went Parkson. wooooosh. they da pao-ed so much. around almost RM200 lerh. so i asked mummy to buy me one small packet of fries. mana tahu when she passed it to me, it was a diff version. haha then they sent me to Dynasty for the dinner. our program started at 5.30pm and the installation went uhhh okay i guess. then at 7pm the dinner started. well, the food came out around 7.30pm i think. or was it 8pm? hmmm. then like there were speeches and performances and ughh LUCKY DRAW. saw some unexpected people there like Gabriel, his friend Malvin, Kim Seng[not Lee] and even Ivan Ong was there. well he was performing larh. haha on the dinner ticket, it says that the program ends at 11pm. i was thinking that maybe before 11pm the whole thing will end. who knows everything ended at around 11.30+pm. the people kept on delaying the lucky draw bahh. it was already the final one. and the Grand Prize was this RM2000+ laptop. goshh we had to buy this special ticket for the draw and like i was really hoping to win bahh. Cikgu Sheila bought like 10 of those lucky draw coupons, which cost RM5 for one. aduh. there were alot of other small prizes and the Brunei Rotarians keep on winning them. even the 1st prize, which was a Nikon 7.1 megapixel Digital Camera, they won. *SIGH* then in the end, you know who won the Grand Prize? well, none other than Chua Ngee Kiat. omg. someone from my school lerh. i was thinking that if someone idk won it, then nvm larh. mana tahu its someone from the same school as me whos like studying in the same block as me too. his class is either next or next next to mine lerh. omg. i was really hoping to win that laptop. Sebastian was very nervous about it. he called Wen Wen around 11.10pm and he kept asking her about the prize. i guess he wanted that alot too ay. lols goshh even Cass got win you know? she got this Egyptian painting thingy. an antique lor. but still, no laptop. not even a camera. haihh wonder when my lucky day will come when i'll actly win sth good from a lucky draw. btw, here are some pictures taken. theres more pics but its not with me now. will upload when i receive em.

Friday :

nice bah right? :P

my ice blended chocolate + pearl

Saturday :

goodbye my lover. goodbye my friend. lols

the Egyptian painting that Cass won

the very cute tortoise i found in my cousin's living room

the KFC that i didnt get to eat

birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRICILLA ! (:

and this is the birthday girl ^^
hope you enjoy yr 16th birthday today.
all the best to you and Kendrick
and stay happy always (:

new skin

im very satisfied with my layout right now.
i dont think i'd wanna change anymore.
unless i find a much better one.
plus, the girl's real pretty.
somehow i feel that she could jst turn me lesbian.
HAHAHA. ignore that ><

i was tagged back

so ive been tagged back by 2 persons i tagged earlier on. theyre Chriss and Jesz and in my answers i'll put C and J as their initial kaes?

1. The person who last tag you is:
Melo and Mrs Kngz

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
C&J : we're friends.

3. Your five ten impression of him/her:
For C :
a) short.
b) really funny
c) ben ben de sumtimes
d) loves to laugh
e) always cheerful
f) a real good friend
g) older than me
h) loves Hello Kitty at the moment
i) loves pink also
j) almost everything she own are pink. omg.

For J :
a) we're around the same height
b) shes got big eyes
c) shes friendly
d) shes the i-dont-go-to-church-every-sunday-cause-im-sometimes-lazy kinda person :P
e) when she does go to church, shes kinda abit late.
f) shes got a car
g) she has problems changing her blog layout. haha
h) shes married to her hubbie Kngz
i) shes still abit shorter than me
j) shes a GIRL :O

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
C : being a good friend
J : thank me in her blog. at the "credit" part thr :]

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
C : what she wrote in the tag.
J : "joe gif u. i don wan liao" :D :D :D

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
C : try to love her as much as she loves me (:
J : torture her. cause she always wants my hubby

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
C : taller pls. haha
J : stop rampas-ing my hubby

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
C&J : say "i dont make enemies *walks to her* lets be friends"

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
C&J : unnecessary reasons

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
C&J : desired? pffffffffffft. go and give her a hug lor.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
you go see what i wrote in the above part.


okay. i stop here. thats all you wanna know right jesz? haha. and uhh heres yr reply Chriss.